I lay in the complete darkness listen to the sound the outside has to offer trying to keep myself awake and distracted from the heartache I feel wishing for something I don't even know I want hearing the train blow and listen to the sounds of cars passing by and the way the wind blows hopefully for this heartache to go away my eyes began to feel heavy but I didn't want to sleep I wanted to hear what the world has to offer me I stare at my ceiling watching the hours go by and not a single person has come to check up on me they think I'm sleeping lucky for me I want to be left alone but also want someone to care for me the way I care for them but it just isn't possible I guess I better get used to comforting myself and bring myself from out of this brokenness I feel maybe in other life time someone could care for me the way I do for others
