I tried my best to get people to see you as a human being dad
after everything you did to me and my siblings
I tried to excused it
And make up excuses
Saying "it's okay" "this is normal"
Being told when I was 10 years old
That this isn't okay
This isn't normal
Having the realization
Hit me like ice water
Making my blood run cold
That what you did and how you acted towards my siblings, my mom and I
Wasn't okay
Having to deal with the trauma you caused me
Dealing with the fear of getting close to someone
To use their love against me
To get me to stay and understand them
