I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov Tessa :

I hear my alarm clock going off. I open my eyes and turning off my alarm. I stand up and walk toward my desk. Today a new day. I hate my school they always bully me especially Hardin. I still don't know why. I never did anything to him it just happened out of nowhere. We where best friends before this happened. When we were little he always came over. We did everything together. But when he became friend with Molly and her group he took his distance.

He started smoking and drinking. He never did that before he hated it when people smoked. His mother died of cancer. That's why he hated smoking because his mother always smoked and that causes her death. I look at the picture of us together. I still don't understand why it's still there. Maybe I need to take it of and replace it with something else but I just couldn't do it. I get undressed and walk towards the mirror. I look at my self with a disgusting face. Why am I so fat. Then I see my wrist. I put my finger on one of those fresh cuts.

I can't help it I need the pain to stop and this is the only way that I don't feel the pain what Hardin does. I take my sweater and jeans and walk towards the bathroom.

I turn on the shower and take my special morning showers. When I'm done I take my towel. When I'm done I put my clothes on and take my glasses and put them on. I open the bathroom and walk downstairs where I see my mom sitting and drinking coffee. " goodmorning sweetie how did you sleep tonight " I walk to the kitchen table and sit down " great thanks mom " I smile and take the coffee my mom put on the kitchen table and take a sip.

" sweetie why are you wearing an sweater it's 100 degrees outside" I look at my thick sweater " I'm just very cold mom " I look at my mom with a smile. I see my mom nod slowly My mom still doesn't know what's under the sweater and I want to keep it that was for as long as possible. I don't want her to worry about me.

" here is your purse I put some food inside and now of you go" I look at my mom who as a smile on her face. I nod and give her an kiss on the cheek. " bye mom ". I walk towards my bike and driving to school. When I'm at school I look around no Hardin. I sigh from relieve. I walk toward my best friend Steph and stand next to her. She always helps me when I needed her she's the best " heyy Tess " i turn to face Steph and smile " hey girl". " Tess why are you wearing an sweater it's 100 degrees outside" I smile lightly because my mom said the same thing this morning " I'm just cold Steph not a big of a deal ".

I see her nod and she says " come we need to go the class is starting soon ". We walk towards Steph classs first. I wave at her and walk towards my class. I'm almost there but then I feel two strong hands pushing me against the lockers. First I was afraid to open my eyes after it felt like hours I slowly open my eyes. I look up and look in his eyes....

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Written on 04-11-2021
Rewritten on 25-10-2023