I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Hardin

I wake up with a headache and look around. I look beside me and see a girl laying next to me. What the hell happened and how did she get here. I stand up and that my towel  and walk towards the shower. I open the bathroom and see a guy knock out in the bath tub. I shake him awake and see that he need to fuck off because I need to take a shower. I see him walking away and I close the door behind him. I turn on the shower and get under it. I start to think what the hell happened yesterday. I only know that I smoked some weed and drink some alcohol.

I turn of the shower and put a towel around my waist and walk towards my room. I open the door and see the girl sitting up in bed. " hey there handsome how are you now " I see a girl smiling at me. I ignore it and get dressed. " hello I said something" I try to ignore it again. " please take you stuff and leave" I feel a little bit of angry coming up . " what" she is shocked good . " I said take you fucking stuff and leave" I turn around and see her taking her clothes and get dressed and leave. I sit down on bed and press my hands in my face. I shake my head and take some paracetamol. I stand up and walk downstairs and sit down on the couch. " hey mate how was yesterday " I look at zero still pissed . " fuck off zed".

" Hardin come on you still thinking about that ugly girl" I hear him laughing. I feel my blood cooking " she was my everything she made me feel like I matter and you guys bullied her she didn't do anything so fuck off". " jeez fine scott" I see zed standing up and walk away. I lay back down and open Instagram. I see a picture of Tessa with some guy at a bar. Who the fuck is that I think by myself. I feel myself getting jealous i sight deep and close my phone. I forgot that I had her on Instagram. I know she won't forgive me. I feel that extreme pain in my chest where my heart is. I have never felt this away about anyone before. I have met so many girls but I have never felt this with anyone only with Tess.

I stand up and walk into the kitchen. It's a fucking mess I open one of the kitchen door and see a pack of cigarettes. I take the cigarettes and walk outside and sit down on the grass. I take a cigarette and light it on. I know she doesn't like it but honestly I don't give a fuck. If she with a guy in a bar than I can do whatever I want. I lay down and put the cigarette to my mouth. I lay down and close my eyes

Flashback.
" come on hardin that girl over there is totally into you" Jace laughs at me . " you think" I laugh too. " yeah go for it mate" I stand up and walk towards the blond girl. " hey love are you here alone" I say with a double tongue. " just with a friend " she smiles at me. " you wanna dance" i smile at her. " yes " I take her by her hips and started to dance. I feel her lips on mine and start to kiss me. I kiss her back. " you wanna go upstairs " I ask her. " yeah" she kisses me again. We walk upstairs to my room. I open it and get inside. I see her laying down and I walk towards her and climb on top of her and start to kiss her.

I can't help it and start to undress her and kiss her. I stop with kissing her and I sit up " I can't do it ". " why I thought you were single" she is confused and I understand. " yeah I am I think" I was confused by my own words. " what do you mean Hardin" i see her looking at me. " I just had a fight with my girlfriend or ex girlfriend I don't know , and she left I just can't hurt her more than I already did " I shake my head and look at her. " I understand and it's okay really" I feel her  taking my hand. " can I stay here" she asked. " yeah of course " . " thanks Hardin" she lays down next to me...
End flashback.

That's why she was laying next to me. I really thought that I just had sex with her that I broke Tessa more. I shake my head and take an other cigarette and call Steph. " why you calling hardin I'm not in the mood" I shake my head when is Steph in the mood. " I just wanted to ask you something " . " sure " she finally say. " not on the phone can we meet" I take  a puff of my cigarette. " yeah sure where" finally . " at the bar" I smile. " yeah be there in 10" i hang  up. I stand up and walk inside to get my keys.

When I get my keys I walk to my car and get inside. I start the car and drive towards the bar. I step out and walk inside and sit down. " anything to drink" I look at the bartender " yeah one vodka ". " it's early in the morning" i look at the bartender and shake my head . " yeah so what" I see him shaking his head again and poring in a vodka. " here you go" I take the glass from him " thanks " I put the cup on to my mouth and grow the vodka back in to my mouth. " Hardin" I see Steph sitting next to me.

" why this bar " she smiled and shake her head . " first to come in mind but that's not why we are here" I take my phone ander Steph see the picture of Tessa and the guy. " what's with him " she crosses her arms. " I wanna know who it is" i cross my arms too. " why Hardin she doesn't want to see you" she  looks down afraid to look at me. " I tried to call her but she blocked me too" .

" yeah I understand why" I roll my eyes. " come on Steph who is it" I'm getting more angrier. " it's Landon Hardin Tessa's best friend" Steph stands up. " and don't think about it give her some time Hardin " I see her walking out of the bar.

I don't want to give her time I want to show her that I really love her. I think by myself. " can I get another vodka" I look at the bartender. " here you go" he hands me another one. How am I even gonna fix the mess that I made. I feel my phone buzzing and answer it. " hardin" with a irritated voice " hardin " I hear a familiar voice . " what do you want dad" Im mad because of all the shit he did to me . " come home son" " never " I'm never going back there I rather sleep on a bench in the park then there. " you will regret it piece of shit" he hangs up.

Shit....

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Written on 30-08-2023
Rewritten on 19-11-2023