I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Hardin

I look at Tessa and see that's she finally fell a sleep. I knew she didn't sleep well last night because I could feel her turning around a couple time and get out of bed. I smile at her and drive towards her house. When we finally arrived I parked the car and walk towards the other side and open the door. I carefully lift her out of the car and close the door. I open the front door and lay her down on the couch and put the covers over her.

I walk towards the kitchen and take a cup of tea and sit down on the kitchen table. I walk towards the fridge to see what we could possibly eat. I see some bell peppers, minced meat, sauce and garlic so I can make pasta. I take the ingredients and start to cook. I'm 5 minutes it will be done enough time for a cigarette. I walk outside and ligt the cigarette. I blow it out and look at the sky. I feel so fucked up now. I grow the cigarette away and walk into the kitchen. I take the plates and put it on the table. I walk towards the couch and sit down " Tess dinner is ready" I shake her awake and see her slowly waking up.

" you should have woke me up so we can cook together " I smile and give her a kiss" you have already a hard time right now and you didn't sleep good last night so I let you sleep" I stand up and sit down on the table and put some pasta on our plates. " I thought you couldn't cook" I look at her and laugh" I can't but I always made pasta that's the only think I can cook". After 15 min we finally were done eating. I take the plates but feel Tessa taking them away from me " you already made dinner I will do the dishes".

I see Tessa putting the dishes into the dishwasher and close it. I take her hand and walk into the backyard and take place into the lounge chairs. " how are you feeling love" I see her looking at me with tears in her eyes. " come here babe" I feel her sitting on my lap and put her arms around my neck. She's so broken and I understand it her mother died it's not nothing.

" shhh it's alright baby it's alright" I put my arms around her waist to calm her down " she's not here anymore Hardin she's forever gone I miss my mom". I feel my heart sunk in my chest by hearing that. " I have fucked up hardin I shouldn't have walked away from her I can't forgive myself , I never said goodbye to my mom Hardin I feel like shit fuck " I feel Tess going off my lap and walking into the kitchen. I never heard her curse before I stand up and walk after her because I don't want that she would do something to her self. I see taking an glass and pore some wiskey in it.

She want to drink it but I stop her. " let go of me" " Tess this isn't the way you know that and believe me I know" " give me the  glass Tess " I see her nod slowly and giving me the glass. I put it on the table and pull her in a hug.

" it will be hard these days I know but you can always come to me even when I'm in class " I feel her nod against my chest. " Hardin" I look at her  " yeah " " I'm so sorry " she looks away I put my finger under her chin and lift it up. " it's alright Tess I understand you had a rough day today" I kiss her softly. " I will make a warm bath for you how does that sounds" I see her smile and hugs me. I take her hand and walk upstairs to the bathroom. I open the water and put so soap in the bathtub and let it fill up. I see Tessa walking in with our pyjama's. " the bath is just for you babe" I see her shake her head " no Hardin your coming in with me " I smile and give her a kiss.

When the bathtub is done we get undressed and get in the warm water. I feel Tessa laying against my chest and I smile. Im so lucky that's she did give me a second change. " Tess " I see her move a little " mhm". " I'm so in love with you" I feel her turn around so she can face me " I'm in love with you too Hardin". " thank you babe" I feel her playing with the hair on my chest " for what " " for giving me an other change" I feel her soft lips on mine and start to kiss me. I feel her tongue touch my lip and open it. I kiss het passionately and pull away slowly. " I love you Tess" " I love you Hardin".

After while we finally decided to get out of the bath and get dressed. We walk downstairs and let Tess know she can sit down and I will make tea and some popcorn. We decided to just have a movie night because we both have school tomorrow. I walk to the kitchen and make 2 tea's and a bowl with popcorn. I put it down on the table. " did you find a movie Tess" I take the bowl with popcorn and sit down. " yeah what do you think about scream" I take the popcorn and put it in my mouth and nod. I feel Tessa laying down and put my arm around her.

After 2 hours the movie was done. I have never thought I would like it. Tessa told me there are more scream movies. I look at Tessa and see her sleeping. I smile and lift her up and walk upstairs. Luckily her bedroom door is open. I walk inside and lay her down on her bed and put the blanket over her. I take my phone and set my alarm for tomorrow. I walk towards the window and look outside I see a beautiful star it's so bright and I smile and whisper quietly an thank you. My mom always told me the brightest star is a person who passed away and my feeling say it's carol.

I lay down and close my arms around her and pull her gently towards me. " goodnight Tess" I kiss her the back of her head and feel myself drifting off

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Written on 14-09-2023
Rewritten on 13-12-2024