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This chapter is from Tessa's pov again.

Pov: Tessa

I open my eyes slowly and feel beside me but don't feel Hardin laying next to me. I sigh today is the day that I will never see my mom again. I stand up and put on my dressing gown and walk downstairs. And walk into the kitchen and see Hardin making breakfast. I smile a bit " since when is mr scott making breakfast" I sit down on the kitchen table. " since I am deeply madly I love with you" he hands me a cup of coffee and I take a sip. " did you sleep a bit Tess you were turning around like crazy" I see Hardin putting everything on the table. " yeah a bit but not really good.

" does school know we are not coming today" I take my phone ready to call the principal. " yeah I called yesterday after it happened " I nod and take a cracker with cheese. I am really trying to eat but i can't swallow anything. " Hardin" " yeah Tess" I know it's stupid to ask but I'm gonna ask anyway. " can I have one cigarette please" I look at him and see his face contorts. " we discussed about this yesterday was the first and last time" " please one" I hear him sigh and give me one. I stand up and walk outside and sit down on the swing. I never thought I would smoke but I really need one.

I put the cigarette in my mouth and grab the lighter. I light the cigarette. " I know it's hard Tessa " I see Hardin sitting next to me and light a cigarette as well. " but this one is really the last one" " please not now okay" I see hardin shaking his head and throws away his cigarette as I do the same. We cleaned the kitchen and walk upstairs to get dressed for the funeral. " it's gonna be okay Tess" I nod and do my hair and walk downstairs to grab my purse. I take Hardin's hand and walk towards his car and get inside. I sit down and hear Hardin start the car. I feel his hand resting on my leg and rub it gently. When we arrived I see my family standing in front of the door waiting to get inside. Some of them I knew from I was little but the other family members I didn't know.

I step out of the car and walk with Hardin towards the door. " mrs young right you wanna see your mom " I nod and take hardin's hand. I see people looking at Hardin with a strange look. My family wasn't really a fan of tattoos. I walk towards the coffin and look at my mom. I looks like she's sleeping and can wake up any minute. I lay my hand on her hand and pull back. She's cold not warm anymore. That's when it hits me she's really not here anymore. " we are gonna close the coffin you can already sit down in the room if you want" I nod and walk with Hardin towards the room and sit down.

I hear everyone get inside and sit down on the chairs behind me. I feel someone taking my hand and look to my left. " Landon" I feel tears coming and hug him. " Hardin called me and told me about your mother, my mother and I drove here as fast as we can". " thank you lan" I hug him tight. " hey Tess my condolences sweetie " I hug Landon's mom and smile " thank you ". I sit down again and hear the door open. I look behind me and see two employees pushing the the coffin to the front. I wanted to do it at first but I couldn't. I hear a song it was my favorite song. How do I say goodbye

Dean Lewis ( how do I say goodbye )
So how do I say goodbye.
To someone who's been with me for my whole damn life?
You gave me my name and the color of your eyes
I see your face when I look at mine.
So how do I , how do I, how do I say goodbye.

When I couldn't , you always saw the best in me.
Right or wrong, you were always on my side.
But I'm scared of what life without you'd like
And I saw the was she looked into your eyes
And I promise if you go, I will make sure she's alright.

So how do I say goodbye
To someone who's been with me for my whole damn life?
You gave me my name and the color of your eyes
I see you face when I look at mine
So how do , how do I , how do I say goodbye

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