I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Hardin

I open my eyes and look around. I got late at home yesterday when I brought Tessa home. I sit up and rub my eyes. And started to think about yesterday.

Flashback.

" its time" I look at him and he's looking at me with a big ass smile. " yeah I know" I look down. " you know what to do" Steph laughs at me I know she supposed to be her best friend. " explain it one more time" I know exactly what I have to do but I'm just playing dumb right now. " well you have to make Tessa fall in love with you so you can break her heart" I hear Molly laughing hard. " we are bullying her already why this" I sound a bit harsh. " ow Hardin I want to make her life like an living hell" what happened between her and Molly.

" and the bullying do I have to still do it because if I keep going to do that she won't fall in love with me " I look at Jace. " you've got a point we still bully her if you make her fall in love with you" I look at Jace and nod. " this will be easy" I take a sip of my drink and put the cigarette to my mouth.

End flashback

I hear my father smashing his empty bottles downstairs. " HARDIN GET HERE" I hear my dad screaming downstairs. I pretend not to hear him. With an couple second he slammed my door open and grab my arm and pull me out of my bed. " DIDNT YOU HEAR ME MISTER" he  spits in my face. I don't say anything. I feel a hand on my face punching me.

"THIS IS WHAT YOU GET IF YOU DONT LISTEN TO ME " I feel on my face and feel something wet. I look and see some blood. " go wash your face and get me some alcohol right now" my dad slams the door shut and leave me speechless. I stand up and walk towards the bathroom and look in the mirror. my lip is cracked open and there is a crack in my eyebrow. I open the crane and wash my face.

I walk downstairs and walk to the front door and open it. " AND HURRY UP YOU KNOW HOW I AM WHEN I HAVE TO WAIT" I shake my head and close the door. I walk towards my motor and put on my helmet. I drive towards the shop and get his stupid alcohol. As I drive back I see a girl standing at the train rails. I see a train getting fast towards her. I see her take a step forward to jump indrong of the train. I ran as fast as I can towards the girl and pul her away from the train rails. I lose my balance and fall in to the grass with her on top of me.

" you okay" I see her standing up and look in the eyes. " omg Tessa what the hell are you doing" I hold her tied afraid she would jump again. I hear her cry and pull her towards my chest. " it's alright" I stroke her hair trying to calm her down. I pull her away and look at her. I place my hands on her cheeks and wipe her tears away. " what where you thinking" Im still holding her face. " I uhm don't know " she looks at me with sad eyes. " come with me " I grab her hand gently and walk towards my motor and and lock it. As we walk towards the park that wasn't far away she hasn't said a word.

When we arrived at the park I sit down on the bench and see Tessa sitting down to but farther away from me. I know what I did was wrong. I have hurt her in so many ways. " Tess" I slowly getting closer to her. " what's wrong" I  take her hands. I see her looking at my hands. " nothing" she's being really cold about all of this. I never had seen her this way so cold no emotion. " Tess that was not nothing you almost jumped in front of a train" I  still holds her hands.

" I'm fine Hardin" I feel her pulling her hands back. " where you going" Im worried. I never been that worried about her. " I'm going home why do you care" she walks away. I'm speechless nobody ever talked to me that way. I look at the clock and see it 5 pm. Shit my dad. I walk fast towards my motor and start it and drive home. I open the door quickly. " WHY DID IT TOOK SO LONG I SAID BE QUICK NOT TWO HOURS LATER " my father yelled grabbing my shirt. " YOUR A FUCKING DISAPPOINTED FOR YOUR MOTHER NO WONDER SHE STOPPED FIGHTING" my dad yelled in my face. Ouch. I slapped his hands of me and run upstairs and lock my bedroom door.

" YOUR NOT GETTING AWAY WITH THIS MISTER NO FOOD" I hear my dad banging on the door. I breath fast and try to calm myself down. The last time I had an panic attack was when my mother died.  aI look down and see that I have a jacket in my hands. I didn't even notice that I had this. It's Tessa's jacket. I pick it up and feel something. I take the envelope out. Should I read this I think by myself. Maybe it's important. my curiosity takes over and I open the envelope and started to read. Omg it's a suicide note fuck. I take my phone and message Tessa. I still have her number.

Me : Tessa are you there?
Me: you okay.
Me: Tessa please answer the phone
Me: im worried!

No response. " fuck " Maybe she's hurt I have to go to her but I can't go downstairs. The only option is trough the window...........

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Written on 25-07-2023
Rewritten on 20-11-2023