I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Tessa

*nightmare*
I open my eyes fast when I hear something downstairs. I look at Hardin but he isn't next to me. Again I hear something fall downstairs. I step out of bed looking if everything is alright downstairs. " Hardin you there" no response that's weird he always say something back. I walk towards the kitchen and see my mom standing there. " mom" I feel tears coming I see her turn around with anger. " this is your fault Theresa if you didn't walk away I would be alive , but because of you you took my life away" she start walking towards me. I take a few steps back " I'm sorry mom I didn't know that would happen please forgive me" I feel tears streaming down my face. " you should lay there your no daughter to me " I take a step back and feel myself falling. I look and see my mother closing the coffin. I feel the air being sucked from out of my lungs.

I open my eyes fast and sit straight up in bed I look at my left and see Hardin laying there peacefully sleeping. It was just a nightmare I go with my hand trough my hair and trying to catch my breath and look at the clock and see it's only 1 am. I get out of bed really slowly so I won't wake up Hardin. I put on my dressing gown and slippers and walk downstairs. I look in the kitchen and no one is there I sigh from relief and open the fridge to take a bottle of water and sit down at the kitchen table. I look at Hardin's pack of cigarettes should I do it? I promised hardin that I won't do it anymore so I can't get addicted like he did. He promised he would stop a couple months ago and I get it that he does it again it wasn't easy the last couple days. I shake my head trying to get it out of my head but I can't. I stand up and take one cigarette and open the backyard door and sit down on the lounge chair.

I look at it for a couple second I never thought I would actually smoke cigarettes if my mom would be here she would definitely give me a tick on my head. With that thought I laugh a little. I put the cigarette to my mouth and light it on. I put the cigarette out and walk inside and lock the back door. I drink my water and walk upstairs. I lay down and feel Hardin arms around me. I smile and give him a kiss on his head. I close my eyes and drift to sleep
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I open my eyes by the alarm clock going of. I sit up and rub my eyes to wake up. I see Hardin still laying peacefully a sleep . I shake I'm awake and see his eyes getting open slowly. " 5 more minutes please" I shake him again" we have to go to school" I hear him sigh and get out of bed and take his clothes and get dressed. Of course he is going to wear a black skinny jeans and a black shirt that's the only thing he wears all the time. I walk towards my suitcase that I still didn't unpacked.

" are these new" I see Hardin pointing at the clothes I got from Karen. " yeah they actually were from Karen but she didn't wear them anymore so I got them. " can I choose an outfit for you" " yeah sure" I smile at him. I see him taking out a blue ripped skinny jeans, a black crop top and take my white Steve Madden sneakers. I take it from him and get dressed. " you look amazing Tessa" I smile and feel him pulling me towards him and I  feel his lips on mine I smile and together we walk downstairs to make some lunch for school. I sit down on the table because Hardin insisted to make it for us. " how much classes do you have today" I look at Hardin " I have 8 why" I take the lunch from him and put it into my bag. " well I have 7 so I will wait " " you sure" I nod and smile.

" do we have any classes together today" I take my phone and shake my head " only one but that's the 7 period. I see him slowly nod " you know what I told you let me know when there is something wrong I know the last time didn't go as planned " I stand up and give him a kiss " I will be fine " i feel Hardin taking my hand and walk towards his car. He opens the door for me so I can sit down. He sit beside me and start the car and drive towards school.

When we arrived I luckily didn't saw Molly , zed and jace. " I know your scared of Molly" I look at him confused " how did you know I was scared". " Tess I know you to well " he smiled at me " ow and zed will not hurt you anymore he told me he needed to do that because Molly  said that" I nod and step out of the car. We take out bags out of the car and walk towards our classes. " kiss" I put my lip on his and wave him goodbye. I walk into the classroom and sit down on my spot. I slowly see everyone getting into the classroom and sit down. Last of all I see Molly and Jace walking in and taking a seat on the other side of the class. I see Molly looking at me with a big smile.

" mrs young good that your back" my teacher say handing me the new work book. " goodmorning class first of all I made a new map for you new places and no your not switching" fuck. " okay Steph with jace , Mila with Jeremy, Thomas with Katherine, Jane with Milan and as last Molly with Theresa you can sit now next to each other". Fuck not her. I feel someone sitting beside me. " so so fatty we sit next to each other " I open my book and pretend I didn't hear her. Hardin told me to just ignore. " alright class I will be back in a couple minutes I have a little meeting it will take 30 min" I really hoped he didn't go because of the look on her face it won't be good.

But nothing happened but then she shows me a picture with me in a coffin. " this is where you belong right there" as she pointed to the grave. I feel her grabbing my hair and pull it backwards I look around but nobody helps me " you know your just a little shit I still don't understand why your mother loved you she should took abortion" I feel my heart broke into million pieces " molly that's enough" " don't interfere with it Steph". Molly let's go of my hair because the teacher got back again " I will get you after school" she whispered in my ear.

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Finally after 7 long hours on school I was finally done. But I had to wait for Hardin because he still in class for a hour. I really tried to avoid Molly.  Everytime I saw her I walked fast to the other side so she wouldn't notice me. I feel my phone buzzing Hardin I done now because the teacher told the they could go earlier. I smile first in a couple months this school day wasn't so bad. But that's what I thought. I feel someone pushing me hard in to the lockers and feel my head hitting the locker. " so so so Theresa you really thought I didn't see that you are avoiding me" I shake my head " please just leave me alone".

I feel Jace grabbing my arms and pull the around so I couldn't move. " you know what we do with a worthless girl like you" " your hurting me please let go" I started to cry. " I heard your mother died 2 days ago she was probably sick of you " another piece broke in my heart. " hold her still we all know you cut yourself but we will do it for you" I tried to get loose but nothing worked. I feel the knife on my arm and waiting for the pain but it didn't come I feel Jace his grib loosing. I turn around and see Molly running away and Jace laying on the ground. I feel the trusting arms wrapped around me. And I broke down .

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Written on 15-09-2023
Rewritten on 15-02-2024