Pov : Hardin
I see Tessa standing up and walk away. " Tess where are you going" I stand up and look at Molly. She gives me a look that mean that I shouldn't give a fuck. I shake my head and walk out of the classroom to look for Tessa. I know I haven't been nice to her But really I hate that I'm bullying her I just wanted to be popular. I know stupidest reason ever I lost a good friend I walk around but she isn't here. I walk outside to smoke a cigaret and see Tessa sitting in the field pulling some grass out of the ground.
I walk towards her and sit down " I'm sorry Tessa I really am". Sorry doesn't change anything Hardin" I hear hurt in her voice and I understand I have hurt her . I see her playing with the string from her shirt. " I know what can I do to make you believe me that I'm sorry " I look at her and hoping she will forgive me someday. " I don't know Hardin I don't think you can do anything to make me change my mind about everything " she looks at me. " I understand" I really do. " can I ask you something " I see her looking down. She's so cute when she's shy I think by myself. " yeah of course what is it" i smile a bit. " did the kiss mean anything to you" I see her looking at me. I didn't expect this question at all.
" I shouldn't have asked it" I see Tessastanding up and wanted to walk away. I grab her hand and stand up too. " no Tess it's not that I didn't expect that question " I still hold her hands. " let's go " . " to where we have class" she just walked out of class and now she wants back in . " no important lessons right " I look at her. " true" she looks down smiling. " I love to see this your beautiful smile" I smile back at her. " you want Starbucks" I see her nod and walk towards my motor.
" I've never ridden on an motorcycle" I hear something afraid in her voice. " it's easy you have to wear a helmet" I give her one and put a helmet on. " I sit down and you only have to sit behind me and hold me tight" I sit on my motorcycle and feel Tessa climbing on the motor and sit behind me. I feel her soft short arms around my waist and start the motorcycle. " you ready " I feel her nod and drive away. This feels like heaven how she's holding me.
After 15 min we arrived at Starbucks and het of my motor and see Tessa doing the same thing. We walk inside. " what can I get you" the cashier say. " can I have cinnamon roll Frappuccino and what do you want Tess" I look at her and see her looking at the menu who is displayed on the screen " can I have the green tea Frappuccino" I smile at Tessa . " anything else" I look at Tess and she shaking her head no. " no thanks you" I smile at the cashier . " that will be €14:60 please" I take the money and give it to her . " here you go and keep the change" I hand her €15. " thank you and here are you drinks have a nice day" I see her winking at me.
I brush it of and walk with Tessa to a table and give her her drink. I sit down and see Tessa is doing the same. " when was the last time we did this" I take a sip and smile. I look at her and her smile fainted. " the last time was at the funeral of your mother" I see her looking down. " and you disappeared when I came back from the bathroom" I look down. That was the day when dad started to drink and beat me. I wish I could tell Tessa what he was doing but my dad was a father to her because she never met her father.
" Tess" I look at her. " yeah " she takes a sip. " I have to tell you something but not here ". " where do you want to talk then" she drinks her cup empty. " I have a place that nobody ever had seen before" I just can't deal it anymore to keep it to myself. I need someone who can help me. I know I have hurt her but maybe when I tell her my secret she will trust me I think by myself.
" your not gonna kill me are you mister Scott" I hear Tessa laugh lightly . " no not kill you Tess maybe something else" I say with a flirting voice. I see Tessa getting red and laugh. " come " I take Tessa hand. I look around and see the cashier is looking jealous. As we walk towards the motorcycle I see my dad walking towards us. I turn around and give Tessa a look that she can't say that I'm here. She understands and turn around as well. I see him walking in a club and shake my head. The only thing he does is drinking.
" wasn't that your dad" I see Tessa looking at me. I nod " yes". " why didn't you say anything " . " that's the part I want to tell you but not here" She nod. I climb on my motor and feel Tessa behind me. I give her her helmet and put mine on. " how long " I smile a bit. " maybe 30 min" I start the motor and drive away.
We arrived 30 minutes later. I feel Tessa stepping of and take her helmet of. " this is so beautiful how did you found this" I see Tessa walking to a bridge by the water and sit down. I step of and put of my helmet and walk towards her. I sit down and say" I found this place a couple years ago. The day that I left you alone" I pull my shoes of and put my feet into the water.
" you wanted to tell me something" i see Tessa sitting beside me " yeah I um" not knowing how to bring the words. I feel Tessa hand on my leg " just start at the beginning". " when my mom died I couldn't really progress the feelings that I felt my dad well I know that he was a father figure for you" I stop for an minute and say " when she died my dad was always blaming that it was my fault, that I was the reason she stopped fighting that I was a disappointment and a failure , my dad started to drink more and more until he got aggressive he started to beat me with a belt or something else, I couldn't take the pain so I started to drink too and smoking, I know my mom died of that but I just couldn't feel anything anymore Tessa, I know I fucked up" I start to cry softly I never cried in front of people but I just need someone.
For a couple minutes Tessa doesn't say anything and I was afraid for the first time in my life. But then I feel her soft arms wrap around me. It was the most amazing feeling I have ever had....
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Written on 05-09-2023
Rewritten on 09-12-2023
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