Pov: Tessa
I wake up and don't see Hardin next to me. I get dressed and walk downstairs. " hey mom did you see Hardin" I walk into the kitchen where my mom is making some tea . " yeah he left early he didn't say why" I see my mom looking at me " did he take his car" I walk towards the front door and open it. I didn't see his car so I have to take my bike. I walk back to te kitchen and take my bag. " thanks mom" I kiss her cheek. " be careful sweetheart " I smile at my mom and walk to the front door and get outside and close the door. I take my phone and message Hardin.
Me: Hardin where are you ?
Me: I'm worried.
Me: Hardin please answer.No response I step on my bike and drive everywhere where Hardin could be. Finally I came at an restaurant and see his car standing in the parking lot. I walk towards it and feel it's still warm so it means he is not here for so long. I walk inside and see Steph and Molly sitting at an table. " hey Tess" I see Steph waving at me to sit next to her . " hey" I sit down next to her and look around . " hey fatty did you find Hardin already " I hear Molly laughing at me . I don't say anything " he will be here soon" I look at Steph and I see a worried look on her face " why did he leave" I asked her. " you will found out ugly girl" I feel Molly slapping my arm. Not hard way but mean way . I see Hardin walking towards us with Jace. Why would he he knows Jace is a bully of mine and he is still with them.
" Tess what are you doing here" I see hardin looking at me with sad eyes. " you were gone this morning and didn't answer your phone " I look at him trying to figure out what is going on. " don't you think this is a little bit to much" I look at her confused " what do you mean". " molly shut up" I look at Hardin his eyes are full of guilt but why what is he hiding . " come on Hardin this game is going to far". " what game" I turn around to face Hardin. " it's nothing Tess really come with Me" I feel him taking my hand but I push him away. " no hardin what is going on what is she talking about" with tears in her eyes I look at him . " did you really think he would fall in love with a fat and ugly girl like you you're just a bet Tessa right Hardin" I look at hardin with tears in my eyes and cry " I'm just a bet hardin". " it's not like that Tess " I feel him taking hmy hands. I pull my hand back and hear Molly say " you are really good in this Hardin wait I have a video so you can see I'm not lying".
I see Molly take her phone and show me the video that they planned this all along. " and you" I turn to face Steph. " you are supposed to be my best friend and you knew and you didn't tell anything" I feel myself getting angrier. " I'm sorry" i shake my head knowing she's not sorry about it . " it's a little bit to late to say sorry" I stand up and walk outside. I feel Hardin grabbing my wrist " Tess please listen" I turn around to face him . " no Hardin I knew this was to prefect I shouldn't have trusted you" I feel the tears running down my cheeks " Tess" . " no Tess Hardin you took away something that wasn't yours Hardin you took my virginity and I regret de decision that I made" I shake my head how could I be so stupid to believe he would actually care.
" I thought there was nothing that could change your mind the way you feel about me" I look at Hardin and see tears in his eyes. " then I guess we are both liars" I walk away from him. I little bit of hope I thought that he would come after me, but he didn't he turned around and got inside again. My heart could cry round now but I have to be strong this time I walk towards our favorite spot the lake I sit down and start to think what I should do. I'm sick of people who are trying to ruin me. I stand up and walk towards home. I know Hardin would be here because he had nowhere to go. I open the front door and walk inside. Of course my mom is working right now. I take my phone and call school to say that I'm feeling sick.
I walk upstairs and see Hardin clothes and shake my head. I take my suitcase and put in some clothes and a toothbrush. I have to leave foe a while. I feel broken I always felt broken but this is something different. I know I shouldn't do this but the pain is to much. I take the blade and put it into my skin and cut my self a few time. I wrapped bandage around it and take a paper and a pen.
Hey Hardin
If you read this that means that I'm gone.
Please do not come find me I need some space
You broke me again I really thought you were different but I guess it wasn't meant to beTessa
I walk down stairs and write a note for my mom that I will sleep a couple days at a friends house. And if she wants to know she should ask Hardin. I take my phone and call Landon. Landon is Amy other best friend who lives farther away from me because we met on the internet. " hey Tess how are you" I hear Landon say at the other end of the phone . " it's a long story can I come to you" . " yeah of course " I smile a bit . " I will see you soon" I hang up the phone and open Hardin message and block him. I can't do this not now. I take my bag and walk towards the front door and close it. When I arrive at the bus station. I step into the bus and drive towards the airport.
When I arrived I walk towards my flight and get in to the plain and sit down. I will miss you even when you are hurting me.....
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Written on 22-07-2023
Rewritten on 30-10-2023
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I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)
FanfictionTessa is an young and brilliant girl who loves to study. Hardin is the bully from her school and bullies Tessa since his mother passed away. Before they were best friends. What happens when Tessa fell in love with her bully and how will he react o...