I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Tessa

" don't be shy Tess I'm staring because you look beautiful" I feel Hardin kissing me and see him walking towards the bathroom. I smile and sit I front of my mirror to put on some makeup. I walk towards my closet and grab some clothes and put it on. I put my hair in a ponytail and walk towards the bathroom. I open it and see Hardin brushing his teeth. I take my toothbrush and brush my teeth when we are done we walk downstairs. " do you want something to drink" I ask Hardin. " coffee please" he sits down and looking at me how I make coffee. I feel his eyes burning in my back.

I give Hardin his coffee. " thanks babe" I feel my checks burning. I hear Hardin laughing. " what are you laughing Hardin" I look down . " you look so beautiful when your shy" I look at him and smile . " are you staying tonight" I ask him taking a sip of my coffee. " I would love too but I have to go home to grab some clothes" I nod " I'm coming" I look at him shaking no. " it's to dangerous Tess" . " then I will wait outside but I won't let you go alone" I take his empty cup and put it into the dishwasher. " do we have the same classes" I shake my head. " today we don't and our classrooms are far away so we don't see each other today" I hear myself with a sad voice saying. " after school we see each other I promise" Hardin stand up and pulling me close to him. " let's go" Hardin takes his keys.

" what are you doing" I hear Hardin say if I want to take my bike. " I'm going with my bike" he shakes his head " no Tessa you will drive with me " Hardin  gives me his second helmet. " i don't want molly to see it" I look at Hardin because she will hurting me more. " don't worry Tessa and I don't give a fuck if she sees us" I sit behind him and feel Hardin starting his motorcycle and drive towards school. I got of the motorcycle. " if there is something wrong call me okay" Hardin gives me a kiss and walk inside. I walk inside too and walk towards Trevor. " hey trev how are you" I smile at him . " I'm alright how are how is your eye" Trevor looks at me worried. " it's alright" I smile at him .

" what class do we have" I see Trevor shrug. " I think biographic" We walk inside the classroom and sit down. " okay class everyone open your book on page 40" I feel my phone buzzing and take it out of my pocket. It's a message from Hardin.

Hardin: I'm here for you Tessa when there is something wrong.
Me: thank you hardin it means the world.
Hardin: your welcome love ❤️
Me:❤️

" Mrs young I already warned you the last time when you where on your phone so you can go to the principal" I look at my teacher hoping he will change his mind . " I won't do it again" Im scared to be out of the classrooms, because I know Molly doesn't have any classes right now. " Mrs young I don't ask it nicely anymore" I stand up and take my stuff and walk out of the classroom. Without any problem I got at the principals office. I knock on the door. " come in" I open the door and close it behind me " mrs young what are you doing here" I look at my principal who is surprised that I'm send here. " well I was on my phone so I needed to go here " I take a seat.

" I never heard any of this from you mrs young for this time I will see it with a warning" the principal smiles at me. " thank you mr Adams" I stand up but I hear my principal say" can you take a seat for a minute". I nod and sit down. " I'm worried about you Tessa" he looks at me. " worried " I asked confused. " is everything alright" he said. " I'm fine really" I laugh at him with a fake smile. " if there is anything you want to talk about you know where you can find me" I nod and smile " I know me Adams thank you" I stand up and walk out of his office.

I walk towards my locker and put my books in it. I feel someone grabbing me and push me into my locker. " so so Theresa what are you doing here" I look into Molly's eyes. " I uhm" I tried to speak but I feel her fist on my stomach. " did I say you could speak" I shake my head. " zed jace hold her for me" I feel Molly grabbing my hair and say" you know what we do with fat and ugly People like you". I'm afraid to say anything. I feel another fist in my stomach. " why are you even still here Tessa you have no one nobody loves you" I feel molly grabbing my hair harder. " what is this you have a hickey why would anyone give you a hickey they don't like a fat girl like you" please just leave me alone" I cry softly hoping she will let go of me. " awe are you scared" I feel molly loosing her grip. I feel her hand around my throat. " come on it's easy to kill yourself it would be such a relief for us" I tried to escape but without success . " molly isn't this to far" I see molly looking at Jace . " why do you even care" molly screames to Jace.

I'm starting to breath harder and feel her punching me one more time and let me fall to the ground. " maybe you will listen now" I see molly,zed and Jace walking away. I run as fast as I can but then I remember I drove to school with Hardin. I know I could say everything to him but this no I can't do this. I ran towards the park and climb into my favorite tree. I take my phone and take of my phone case. I always have a spare blade in there. I open message and typ a message to Hardin.

Me: you weren't there Hardin they did it again.
Me: I'm sorry Hardin but she's right I'm nothing I don't blame her I blame myself.
Me: I love you hardin.
Hardin: Tess where are you?
Hardin: it's not true tessa you deserve the most beautiful thing in the world. You are my world.

I take the blade and pull up my sleeve. I put the blade into my skin but the I feel my phone buzzing again.

Hardin: I love you Tessa I always loved you. I never wanted to hurt you. I'm fucking in love with you Tessa young I always have but I was afraid to tell you I was afraid that I would ruin our friendship. And I think that was the reason that I stopped hanging out with you and I'm so fucking sorry. Please just let me know where you are.
Me: I'm at the park.

I put the blade back into my phone case and climb down. I sit down on the grass. He always safes my life....

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Written on 29-09-2023
Rewritten on 11-12-2023