I fell in love with my bully ( trigger warning selfharm)

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Pov: Tessa

I wake up from my alarm. I open my eyes and see a plate with breakfast and an cup with milk in it. I smile lightly. My mom is the best. I see a note.

Hey sweetie I have made you breakfast and for school. I will be late home so I have pizza for you. And I want you to know that I'm so proud of you. How you doing at school. And you can always come to me when your feeling upset or anything

Love mom❤️

I take a bite and think about yesterday. He just kissed me and leaves me in shock. When he was gone I was shocked but the other side happy. I always was in love with him when we where friends and even when he bullied me. It sounds weird I know why would you fall in love with someone is bullying you. I stand up and put my breakfast on my desk and walk towards the closet. I walk to the bathroom. I get undressed and look at my arm who is still rapped in bandage. I take the bandage of and turn on the shower.

I look at my cuts and see that one is starting to bleed again. I take a quick shower and put new bandage on my arm and walk with a towel around my body to my room. I open my closet and look for a black jeans and a black shirt with long sleeves. I take my hairdryer and blow dry my hair. When it's dry I put it into an ponytail and put on some makeup. I take my bag and walk downstairs to the kitchen. I take my food and my drink and walk to the front door. I thought yesterday that it was my last time to see my mom and this house. I close the door and take my bike and drive towards school. When I arrived at school I put my bike in the bike shed.

I walk trough the door to my locker and open it to take my books. I close my locker and see Molly standing in front of me. I feel her pushing me against the locker " hey fatty". I don't say anything and hear zed say" she's asking you something". I look to my left and see Hardin I give him a look maybe he would help me , but he turned is head away and walks away. i feel how molly punches me in the face and stomach. I fall to the ground and hear their laughter. " why" is the only thing I can say. " why" molly  kneels down in front of me and take my face. " because you don't deserve any happiness in life " she let go of my face and walk away.

" Tessa you okay " I hear Trevor I feel him holding me up. " yeah I'm fine" I I try to stand up and I feel myself getting dizzy and hold Trevor. " you're not fine Tess let's go to the school nurse" Trevor say holding me tight. " miss Tessa doesn't feel okay" Trevor brings me to the school nurse. " sit down mrs young I will get you some water and a band-aid" I see her walking towards her desk. " I don't need an band-aid " I hold my head. " you do Tessa your eyebrow is bleeding" she puts an band-aid on my eyebrow. " what happened dear" she sits in front of me and handing me a cup with water. " I uhm felt" I look at Trevor not to say anything.

" you sure " she looks at me. " yeah I really sure" I say. " okay stay for a bit and then you can go to your class I will mail your teacher that you weren't feeling alright so she can't get you absent" I see her sit behind her laptop. " thank you" I take a sip from my cup. " that's done her you have some painkillers" she gives me the tablet and I put it in my mouth and take a sip from my water and swallow it. " you ready" I feel Trevor helping me out of the chair. " yeah " I walk with Trevor to our classroom. Me and Trevor has the same classes today. We walk inside. " hey Tessa you can sit next to Hardin Trevor you can sit next to Steph" I look at Hardin and look back at my teacher " do I really have too".

" yes Tessa please take a seat " I walk towards Hardin and sit down. I look down to my paper and read it. " Tess" I hear Hardin say. I ignore him and keep reading in my school book . " Tess please" I look at him with tears in my eyes  " what do you want Hardin". " what happened " he looks at my cracked eyebrow and blue eye". " like you don't know" I stand up and take my backpack I walk out of the classroom. I hear from behind my teacher say"Tessa where are you going". I don't listen and walk outside. I'm sick of this like he would care. Hey never cared in the first place when the started to bully me. So why would he care now. I sit down on the field. And pull on the grass.

I take my phone and scroll trough Instagram. A couple minutes go by and I feel someone sitting next to. " I'm sorry Tess I really am " I hear Hardin say. " sorry doesn't change anything Hardin" I  play with my shirt. " I know what can I do to make you believe me that I'm sorry" I was thinking about what he just said how can I believe him after everything. I turn my head to face him " I don't know Hardin I don't think you can do anything to make me change my mind about everything ". " can I ask you something " I still play with my shirt that's what I always do when I'm upset or nervous . " yeah of course what is it" I see him looking at me. " did the kiss mean anything to you" I ask looking into his eyes...........

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Written on 29-08-2023
Rewritten on 09-12-2023