FEMALE LEAD SERIES BOOK 1: HIRED GUN

Chapter 32 - Jay the mind reader

ANDRIETTE LOUISE DE VERA

I woke up in a daze.

I like my client.

I like Adonis.

"Oh fuck." I groaned and sat on the edge of my bed, grasping my hair with my hands.

"I like him. I fucking fell for him." the more I whispered it to myself, the more real it felt. It was like a wakeup call. A cold douse of water that drenched my senses, awaking them with a start. This wasn't supposed to happen. This wasn't supposed to happen!

"Of all the men that courted me, I fell for this one. Why? Just why?" I kept mumbling to myself as I stood up and got ready for the day in a zombie like state, my heart rate beating too fast for my own comfort.

I felt relieved that I finally knew what that nagging feeling was. The one that ate up my insides and kept me awake at night every time Adonis looked at me. But even with the relief coursing through my veins, I couldn't help but feel bitter, angry and scared. Oh I'm fucking terrified. I have no idea what my father, the Director even, would say if they find out. I'll be dead meat, I'm sure of it.

Or I'll be stripped off my rank, kicked off the high seat like some useless ragdoll. I'll start from the beginning once again, a failure. I'm not even certain if the Director would still let me be an agent in his agency once he finds out. He could fire me and forget about me in an instant, no strings attached. New agents were on their way and I'll be forgotten, all because I fell for a client that I had been protecting for only three months.

How pathetic.

I scrubbed myself harshly, my skin turning a flushed pink. I knew I was breaking skin, the stinging was an evidence for that, but I couldn't help it. I know I'm coming off as overdramatic but its either I chase the man I want or become jobless. And Adonis- goodness I'm even calling him by his name now! A request he had last night that stuck to my brain like glue. Everything about him, it just made something inside me heat up. I just, I like it when he gets jealous. I like it when he calls me by my name. And dear Lord I love it when he stares at me like I'm worth more than millions. More than all the empires he had built across the world. More than the world itself. It makes me feel valued.

I'm not even making sense anymore, am I?

I dried myself softy this time, not wanting to regret it early on. My skin was still pink but it didn't matter. No one would be seeing it as my uniform would be covering every pink hue I managed to paint on myself. And it'll fade off eventually. And hopefully, hopefully the soft stinging would be a good enough distraction from Adonis' steel blue eyes that I hopelessly let myself fall into.

Once I was ready and presentable, I left my room. I promised Adonis that I'll be explaining the plan today since I was barely coherent last night, and today would be a better option too; I need everyone to be present for this. The plan needs to be discussed in front of my family and his, seeing as it would either be a life or death situation.

But honestly, since when did my job feel safe enough to not discuss the possibility of death?

"Louise, darling! You're late today. Is anything wrong?" Mama greeted me once I reached the dining room. I was in fact, late this time. Everyone was already eating, and I don't blame them for starting without me. It's already past eight in the morning, and we wake up at seven. Or at least they wake up seven and I wake up at four am.

Yes. I am extremely late.

"Nothing's wrong Mama. I was just tired yesterday." I sat down in between Aria and Andrei, my siblings giving me head nods in greeting. Mama handed me a plate and I thanked her softly, filling up my plate with rice and a fried egg. The classic breakfast you can never get wrong.