Random Thoughts

2021 wasn't my year

Since 2021 is about to end let me sum up my year... it can be described as the worst year in my life... It started with covid and I didn't enjoy my junior year because of the lockdown shit and all the instructions. January was amazing we had a lot of family meetings we enjoyed every moment playing games together, trying new recipes with my mom, seeing my niece Juju growing was amazing, in Feb we welcomed the second niece Sophia, the little cutie pie of the family, and we can say we had the perfect family picture. March was warm, springy, and beautiful full of love, we had many picnic days, barbeque days and we celebrated our brother's birthday. In April, I celebrated my birthday with my friends, and dad's birthday I had amazing beautiful walking days with dad, many cars journey in Ramadan. I was happy, I felt that I was at peace for the first time in a while I was happy and blessed. May, June was full of lovely days and amazing summer nights. For the first time, it all seemed to be perfect for me. but July was a gloomy and dark month, exactly on 23/7/2021 at 11 AM and something I lost my favorite person, my dad. And that perfect family picture just shattered into pieces. All my life just flipped and that wasn't enough I lost 3 of the closest friends to me... just figured that I didn't pick good friends...

Yeah, here I am still living in Dec, after finishing all the mids that I messed up in so much, and that's the short script of my 2021. The school was bad, and all the teachers were just assholes.  But I know that my dad now is at a better place, as I always believed he was too good for here and I will be sure to make you proud as much as I'm proud of holding your name dad. I'm aware now that I have amazing friends, and I'm so grateful for having them in my life, those friends who opened their arms for me to cry at any time and anywhere, and I'm sure I will be there for them always. I'm also thankful for 3 teachers from my previous school, those the only ones that never lose hope in me, the ones that still ask about me even though it's been a long time since the last time I saw them thank you for the long messages, that always says that you believe in me. I'm grateful for another teacher that never stops for giving me motivational speeches about life and how I can beat it, thank you for listening to my problems, for hugging me before tests, for telling me that I can be a badass woman, who she only cares about her family, and I want to tell you that you are an amazingly strong woman. 

I am grateful for my mom, the one who raised my big brother alone while my dad was away, and for being a strong mom continuously. For my one and only sister thank you for being such a role model for me, thank you for always reminding me that I can be a successful person one day, and I'm sure that dad is very proud of his little dentist girl. Thank you for my brothers, the ones that got our back, thank you for working hard to keep us on our dad's path. Thank you for the one who adds love and happiness to our life, my little brother Koke, our Fortnite player we are grateful for having you. Just another person that I'm grateful for is you, for existing, for being you, for joining my journey, and for allowing me to share everything that happened with me... 

2021 wasn't my year at all, Thank you so much

With love, Asala Rezeq