Random Thoughts

Sooner or later

Soon I will graduate from high school, I will get into the stage and get my diploma and shake some hands, and then like that I will cross the line to the next chapter of my life... and by that, I will realize that I am leaving again, I'm leaving the school and people that I spent so much time with... to be honest, I will be grateful in a way or another but then my friend will be no longer 10 minutes away from me and if I need to see my friends I will need a road trip... then one by one from my friends will start leaving and moving out and start their own chapters of life, then all I have is a zoom in order to see them... Then maybe I will cross that a friend at the street but we won't talk because we are not at school anymore... maybe I will enter the pharmacy one day and I will find one of my friends working there, but he/she won't recognize me because after school we won't talk anymore... and there will be no lunch with friends, or eating after the school together or late night calls with a friend talking about the tea... and like that, I will end alone in a cold apartment, with no single tree or a flower, and maybe with dark walls...

Everything will change and just like that you will realize that leaving is always a choice, and not an optional choice, sooner or later everyone will leave, I will leave, you will leave and we all will leave... But all leavings differ from a person to a person... and I will have many seasonal relations and people will leave me saying "I've seen this before and I know how it ends" and I will love people but still I will let them go... I will hear the words "go over it" a lot and I won't have time for sadness since the whole who surrounds me will keep pushing me to stop being dramatic saying "go over your phase\you can't keep going like that" and by that, I will understand the principles of life and how lonely I am in it... 

Sooner or later I will leave this place too...