This Saturday 28/5/2022 was my graduation day from high school and let me tell you a short story...
The story talks about a little girl who lived her life to the fullest with happiness but when she got into middle school it all turned around, life changed... the dark clouds and dust replaced the sunshine, butterflies, and birds, and the happiness turned into sadness... all of that happened to her but she was left with two choices to give up to let her deadly soul drown or to survive... to survive the cruel world she lives in...
She started fighting for her own life when she was a little girl, she didn't fight the people who were against her only but she fought herself too, she every day fight her thoughts that are telling her again and again how bad she is or ways to kill herself... She tried to express herself to people who thought they can understand, they might help but they left her alone and broke her more... she was always left with no reasons or explanations, she preferred that she was told that they can't be friends anymore rather than being left while she was doing her best to make the friendship work, setting plans, open up to them, they didn't give her a notice that she might end alone again... she used to put everything into them but at the end, she was left by herself...
she always seems fine around her classmates, family out in the gym, or on the street, but when she is alone her feelings are crashing down... she was mentally draining, she was fighting battles that she will never win... many times when was on the brink of collapse, she was always thinking about giving up, but then she remembers that she can do a little bit more... she stopped searching for people who she can make homes out of them, she stopped because she understood that people are not her homes and homes out of people can also be like streets full of strangers, anytime they can be devastated and she can be attacked by them...
she started handling her own healing, she started solving her own issues, and she was like a dead moving body but she tried her best to go over all the consequences... she succeeded in completing the school level while she is alive and this Sat 28/5 she graduated, and now she is thinking and figuring out what she will do next, she still has the two choices in her pocket...
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Random Thoughts
Non-FictionSome random thoughts that I think of at 2 AM or when I am sad or let's just say some feelings... I hope you will enjoy reading what's running in my mind before I fall asleep... Started: 5/6/2020 (ongoing)
