Random Thoughts

If you fall in love with me, don't.

I am completely a different person, it's not about that I hate myself or something, it's just I'm different, and I'm telling you this to warn and protect you because I care about you. I smile by habit not by choice, I give only like it's my job, I'm a people pleaser. We pleasers we just give and give. I look like the moon, but even the moon had two sides and also me, as I finish my lunar cycle, you will see the dark side of me. Yes, I'm so emotional, so emotional person. I'm also an incredibly all-or-nothing person to a fault. So don't fall in love with me. As I said as I finish my lunar cycle, my dark side appears like we pleasers give and give until we give everything we have so then we have nothing and we are left drained. So I take my book and my headphones and I leave my house to the farthest place I can but then I eventually return home. I'm a person who is so obsessed with stars, galaxies, and the sky, but it depresses me that these beautiful things will be swallowed by a selfish black hole and it's just like my dreams they will be swallowed by a selfish one that makes it impossible to achieve. I'm a tangled mess. As I said I'm an all-or-nothing person, so if I fall in love with you, I won't be limited I will fall into your facial expressions, the way you walk, your smile, how your eyes escape when you deny that you're jealous or sad. I will fall in love with both the dark and bright sides of you. So if you fall in love with me, don't fall just with me, fall with me as a tangled mess and my complex things.