Mikasa and I stood on a roof top, her and I noticed all of the soldiers and cadets standing on roof tops below up, she looked over at me and said, "why isn't anyone going over the wall? Didn't they hear the withdraw signals?" She put her attention back on the soldiers and as did I, "no way they didn't, they couldn't have run out of gas..right,"I asked hoping to not find out the answer. A bell could be heard, I assume Mikasa heard too because we both turned our attention towards the tower. My stomach did a flip.
No fucking way.
The tower was crawling with titans, And that's where our supplies were being held.
Mikasa hit my arm to get my attention, "come on" she said and zipped off the roof, I followed without a word, then I saw our destination, the rooftop with the other cadets. We landed on the roof and started running towards the others.
"Rin! Mikasa! Weren't you two in the rear guard?" I stoped when I reached the others but Mikasa didn't, she ran towards Annie, asking about Eren. I walked slowly and Reiner met me half way. I didn't say anything, Reiner was being too weird and i wasn't about to entertain it. I stopped and looked up at him. He patted my head,pulling me closer, "you did good Rin." I straightened my posture. "Yea, I know. What were you up to?" Reiner choked and stood up straighter.
What the hell is his problem?
My conversation was cut short by some words that pierced my soul.
"They were, the cadets of squad 34. Thomas Wagner, Nack Tierce, Milieus Zeremski, Mina Carolina, Eren Jeager! These brave people upheld their duties and died on the field of battle." Armin cry.
I felt my heart drop, I felt my body start to break down, Luckily Reiner had a grip on my shoulders not letting me fall.
"His whole squad was wiped?"
"The same will happen to us if we try to take them on."
I felt like I was dreaming, my body didn't feel like it was under my control.
"Marco. If we bypass the titans at HQ we can refuel our gear, allowing us to get back over the wall, correct?" Mikasa was slow and steady as we talked, walking to the front of the group. Marco stuttered, "yea I guess so, but, but their are to many! Even with you and Rin on point you can't help us all!"
Mikasa stood in front of us.
"I can do it. I'm strong. Real strong. None of you come close to me. You understand? I have the power to slay any Titan in my path. Even by myself. As far as I'm concerned I'm surrounded but untalented nobodies. You disappointed me. You just sit her and twiddle your thumbs and watch how it's done."
"Mikasa are you crazy!"
"No way you can do this on your own!"
Mikasa turned around, "if I can't beat them then I die, but If I do then I live. And the only way to live is to fight!"
And with that, she was gone.
Everyone was silent. I let out a dry laugh as I pulled away from Reiner and pushed to the front of the group, "Is that a challenge, Mikasa?" was all I said before zipping off after her.
Jean and the other soon followed after me.
Mikasa fell.
Connie yelled, "Jean, you lead the rest of HQ, follow Rin, I'm going after Armin and Mikasa."
I felt tears burning at my eyes but i wouldn't let them fall. My heart pounded with each second. I felt like an empty shell, hollow, all I saw was red and my mind was an empty vessel. I must have struck down a dozen titans on my way to HQ, but it didn't matter.
We all stood on the roof tops, completely
Powerless. I stood by the edge listening to the screams. My heart wasn't moved, I just clenched my jaw and stared into the distance. Screams and the sound of falling building being the melody to my toxic thoughts. I saw a Titan eating one of our comrade, without a moment of hesitation I jumped and sliced the nape, using what little gas I had left. He was dead before he fell from the beast's mouth, but the point wasn't to save him.
I just wanted to kill it.
I stood on a roof top alone, everyone looking at me with both horror and amazement but I didn't care what they thought. I felt numb. Then the screams again, my blades were to dull and my gas low, I was completely worthless.
I felt a glisten of surprise as the last person I expected to, yelled, "Let's go! Make a run for HQ while they're distracted!" Jean jumped from the roof and let the charge. With no hesitation I was the first to follow, "you all make me sick, join us or die like cowards, your choice,"I yelled as I passed the others.
Then the rest followed.
Titan grabbed into Jean and it pissed me off, within a second I cuts the monsters hand from its wrist and used its face as leverage to reach behind it and cut its nape.
We kept going.
Then we made it to the windows, I crashed through the glass landed on my feet inside the room, I saw the others follow suit.
"Hold on a second, you guys are the supply team right?" Jean started going off and a bunch of soldiers for refusing to bring up gas when we needed it most. I was too tired to fight however, so i slouched down on the floor. Mikasa, Armin and Connie came flying into the room.
"That's right! That big idiot is our ticket out!" Connie yelled pointing at an abnormal Titan out the window.
"A Titan can't help us you're out of your mind this won't work"
"But it is working. For whatever reason he's killing his own kind. Just let him do it, you'll see. Either way, what other choice do we have?"
I listened in horror as the Titan slaughtering the other titans outside. I stood next to Reiner, "that's all good but what's to keep him from turning on us next?" He said. I looked down. "I trust Mikasa, is she says it will work then it will."
Then Jean appeared again, holding crates, "courtesy of the military police, and covered with a think layer of dust."
We all gathered around to hear Armins plan, Jean put a gun in my hand. "Can you use it?" He asked. I looked at the weapon, "how hard can it be." I said bluntly. He hit me on the back of the head and spoke to the group again, "are we sure this is the way to go? Do guns even work on these things?"
Armin sighed, "I'm not sure, we're looking at 7 titans in the supply room that are 4 meters tall, if we time it just right this should do the trick. First, we lower a group into the area with a lift to get the titans attention. Second, when the titans come within range we shoot in all 4 directions blinding them. Then the hard part, before they can recover 8 of us must swoop down and strike their napes. That's all 8 people have to kill 8 titans in 1 blow. So we'll need the best, the ones most physically gifted with their gear. You'll be the difference between life and death. I'm sorry, that's just how it is.
Armin- "Okay the lift is ready to go and the guns are loaded. Let's kill some titans."
Rin- "Can we do this without ODM gear?"
Jean- "No problem, they're only 4 meters. So the weak spot is about at eye level."
Armin- "He's right. Size won't be an issue."
Sasha- "Back of the head to the nape of the neck!"
Reiner- "Worst comes to worst you can always shove one down these up their ass. That's the other weak spot."
Connie- "Are you for real? That's news to me?"
Sasha "Did I miss a day of training?"
Jean- "Shit Reiner, do you really want your last words to be an ass joke?"
I usually would have laughed at this Exchange, but I couldn't, I needed to stay focused.
The titans neared and we swooped down. I cut the nape of my Titan in an instant.
"Their all dead! Start loading up supplies!" Jean yelled up to the group in the lift.
I went to the farthest tank and began to refill my gas.
—-normal pov—-
Jean-"listen, what you said about me being a leader, don't talk to me like that again, alright?"
Marco- "promise you won't take this the wrong way or anything. But I don't think you're a good leader because you're strong. I think you're a good leader because you know how it is to be weak. You're one of us. You're scared out of your mind just like the rest of us. It makes you alert and sympathetic. You made a damn good call out there. You had me running for my life, you're why I can say all this."
——-Rin pov——-
I squatted on the ground, putting new gas tanks where my old ones once were. I felt so empty, everyone around me looks so relieved and happy to be alive.
What's wrong with me. Why do I feel so hallow? No gratitude, no relief, no fear. Wake up Rin.
"Hey Rin."
I stoped and looked over my shoulder, then I turned back around and out in my last gas tank before standing up and facing the person behind me. "Jean." I looked up maintaining eye contact. Jean reached out and put his hand on my shoulder, "you did good out there, I'm glad you made it out." I stiffened at his words.
Jean. This isn't what I need to hear right now. Especially not from you.
"right. You too." Was all I could manage to say before I pushed passed him and began walking to an unknown destination. I wanted to turn around, run and hug Jean, inhale his sent and feel alive again. But this isn't the time.
Maybe in another life.
That Titan was our last hope, and I just watched him get completely eating right before my eyes.
"Let's go, we're lucky the bastard didn't get bored and eat us." Jean complained and turned to leave. But I couldn't take my eyes off the thing, the titans were devouring it.
I felt electricity shock my body as I watched someone burst from the body of the fallen Titan. I squinted.
Eren?
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Memories ~ Attack on Titan
AdventureRin Ackerman, the daughter of Levi Ackerman, is a girl who possesses a special ability. Rin had never been around people her own age, so when she becomes part of the 104th the relationships she made with her classmates were very special to her. Betw...
