Memories ~ Attack on Titan

Chapter thirty seven

The scouts continue to chase after us. Also I couldn't help but notice the swarm of Titans running after them. Commander, what on earth are you thinking? Please don't get yourself killed, don't get all of them killed. Reiner was getting slower, I could tell because of how close the scouts were getting. If Reiner had his full  capability, we wouldn't even be in sight of the scouts. But they're right here. Suddenly I saw Ymir pull something out of her mouth, no pull someone out of her mouth. it was Christa, my heart skipped a beat when I saw her. she was coughing like crazy. Suddenly Ymir emerge from her titan. Christa called out to her, she sounded so worried. Ymir looked at the blonde, "Christa, no, Historia. I'm sorry about eating you. Youre uh, probably pissed."
Historia?
Christa looked around at all of us, she seemed to be holding back her panic when she talks, "what, what is this? I- what's going on? talk to me! We came to rescue you and-" but she was cut off by Ymir's yell, "shut up! I don't need to be rescued. Things have changed. I'm with Reiner and Bertolt now. And like it or not you're coming with us. there's no future inside the walls! just hear me out for a second, Okay? The outside isn't as bad as you think, trust me. for starters, there's no one saying the world would be a better place if you weren't born." Christa seemed panicked now, " yeah, I don't think Titans would say much either way. they be too busy trying to devour us!" This set Ymir off, " we've all got flaws! they're not so bad if you give them a break! it's complicated! Get off your high horses!" But this isn't complicated," what does she expect from her? To sit down and have a chat with the Titans? Work things out like decent human beings? I wish I was how the world works. Christa continues yelling, "Ymir! I don't know what's gotten into you. You're not making any sense! Come on! What did Reiner and Bertolt say to you? You're doing this against your will aren't you? Are they threatening you? Common Rin back me up! They're threatening all of you aren't they!" Christa now looked to me, I thought my mouth go dry. Theirs another one of those moments where I felt like a ghost, is it weird that she had acknowledge me because I feel As though I wasn't there at all. "no, she's doing this on her own free will. I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say," Were the only word I could muster up. Christa looked back to Ymir, Ymir looked horrified. Suddenly Christa started to scream again, " no I have to be right! Whatever they have on you I don't care! We can fight them! put the past behind you! i'm here! I will always be here! I will always be on your side!" I just wanted out, I wanted home, I don't want this. suddenly Bertolt spoke up, "Ymir, look. In case you haven't noticed, The scouts are closing in. If we would've left earlier, there might've been a decent chance about running them. going back for her was your idea, you forced us. Remember that? we waited, for what? What the hell do we do this for? you can't have a change of heart!" all the arguing and screaming was making my head spin. Bertolt, Christa, Ymir, I didn't wanna hear any of it. suddenly I saw them, scouts flying and all directions around the armor Titan. My heart skipped a beat, I felt like I was going to be sick. I feel so bad like I could pass out. All this movement, and this wind on my face, I was barely in consciousness at this point. Hardly able to keep my eyes open. I watched as Mikasa Swung her way to the nape of The armored titan directly Bertolt and Eren. "REINER! PROTECT US!" was the last thing I heard. I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer, finally allowed them to rest. I couldn't move, I couldn't open my eyes. But I could hear everything. "nice try Bertolt, When something lights a fire under him that's it. Getting Eren to calm down was a lost cause take my word for it. what do you say we each him some patience? Come on show yourself, also while I'm at it, where's my girlfriend at?," the voice of Jean. The voice I felt like I haven't heard in forever. Jean, I'm over here please. Please get me out. But I couldn't scream, I wanted to scream his name but I couldn't. I couldn't move, I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't even breathe. Suddenly the sounds started to swirl, this world until I could hear nothing. It was dark, and silent, but my brain felt fully awake.

Days later

For the first time in what felt like forever I felt the warmth of the sunlight on my face. for the first time, I was able to keep my eyes open. Looking at the lilac ceiling above me. It felt so surreal, I felt like I had open my eyes for the first time. I used my arms lift myself up but only heard a sweet voice tell me not to. "Hey hey now, you need to rest." Jean softly push me back down pulled the covers back over my arms. He looked at me with concern. " what's wrong?" I asked but it would only come out in a small whisper. my face felt wet, I reached my hand to place it on my cheek. I was crying. I reach my hand up and touch jeans face, his skin felt soft. He looked surprised. " I missed you," I said but again would only come out and whisper. I pulled Jeans faced on to mine, and I softly kissed his lips. It wasn't just a peck this time, but he kissed me back and I felt that he missed me too. I slowly pulled away and cleared my throat. I smiled now, I was able to speak more clearly," so, girlfriend?" referring to the label he used for me. Jeans face turned a shade of pink, "well I, you know. I wanted to ask you but uh-" I cut him off by sitting up on my knees and kissing him again. I felt the shock in his face. I pulled away and looked at him with a smirk, still that bright shade of pink on his face. He looked away from me, looking down at the ground, "so uh, you want to maybe. I don't know, maybe be my-"I cut him off again, "yes, I want to be your girlfriend." He looked back at me completely in shock, it was so cute I couldn't help but laugh a little. His shocked face turned into a soft smile and then pulled me in for a hug, a nice genuine hug. I felt so happy. then I remembered, and I pulled back and looked at Jean. "Eren, how's Eren," jean seemed a little annoyed at my question. "yea he's fine...We can uh, go see him if you want." I felt my heart flutter at Jeans words. I smiled and held his hand, " yeah, that'd be nice." Jean helped me stand up and we walked out of my room into an open hallway. The hallway had rooms on one side and the other side was open, connected by pillars, so the sunlight was flowing it. I saw Eren, Mikasa and Armin standing towards the end of the hall. I felt my heart skip a beat seeing all of them. I was so happy they were okay. I let go of jeans hand and ran to the group. Eren Turned and saw me, his monotone expression immediately change into a smile. "Rin, you're awake!" He said happily. when I finally reached him I was a bit out of breath, panting. But I felt at a loss for breath when Eren out of nowhere pulled me into a hug. I was shocked but easily I was able to relax and hug him back. He pulled away and I looked over at Armin, holding my arms out motion that I wanted him to give me a hug. Armin Smiled and embraced me a hug. It felt so good. Suddenly I heard the sound of Jean clearing his throat next to me. I pulled away from Armin and look at my boyfriend. Jean looked to the side, "good to see everyone's awake, and okay," he murdered. Erens smile quickly faded as he looked at his feet, " I allowed myself and Rin to be kidnapped. This was all my fault. because of me the scouts lost almost half of their team. With one single rest you attempt. Because I couldn't protect myself or Rin." I saw him look at the ground. The sad atmosphere was evident. Armin, trying his best to make light of the situation, tried to convince Eren that everything was okay after all, " still, there were no casualties on the way back. The Titans all but completely ignored us. they were too worried about Riner and the others. hear me out now, suppose they acted that way, because of you." This drew my attention, It drew everyone's attention, I think I was the only one who seemed genuinely shocked by this though. I looked from Armin to Eren, Eren Seemed just a shock. Jean sighed, "it's just a thought though, of course. as far as an explanation, that's about as good as we have. i'm not saying I envy the position you're in. Maybe all those people really did die for nothing. that all depends on you. if you're really worth the sacrifice, you better damn prove it." we all looked at Jean, all a bit surprised by what he had to say. I never knew my boyfriend to be so calm and rational. I looked back over to Eren, Who is being unusually quiet. he was staring down in his hand, "you're right. I have to be decisive. this is real, if I really can control Titans, I have to plug the wall in wall Maria. then make Reiner answer for what he's done. People died. I have earn the sacrifice they gave."

Wow, one whole step huh. At this rate we'll run out of people before we even reach it. Not a great rate of return.

Everything comes at a price. One day we'll get Close enough to break through.
The wall holding us back from the truth
Will tumble