The Sitter's Sister

Chapter 41

Dr Jung had ended up coming to Jesy's house to check on Leigh-Anne since the girl had not been home in time for her session. She had woken up from fainting around the time that she was supposed to talk to the doctor so had had her session at Jesy's. Janice had called Marcy to explain everything that happened. Jungkook had been instructed to go back to school after a while and had apologized for what he had caused. Leigh had told him that she was to blame but he'd still felt bad. At the moment, she was still on the couch as she felt winded from everything that had happened. Dr Jung had just spoken to her and was heading to talk to Jesy. Janice would be bringing Leigh home in a moment. In the mean time, Leigh was just having something to eat.

Jesy had been trying to hear what was happening down stairs by having her ear against the door when she heard foot steps approaching her room.

She ran to bed and sat as if she had not been doing anything.

Dr Jung entered with a notebook in hand, seeming a bit spent but smiled once she saw Jesy. "Hi Jesy, so sorry if I'm a bit late,"

"No, no it's fine, it's fine." Jesy tried to act casual. "I know that you were dealing with bigger issues,"

"Ah don't say that." Dr Jung grabbed a chair from the corner and brought it to the night stand to sit. "You're equally as important as anyone else and all of your emotions are valid. You just need to learn how to handle and process them better so you don't hurt yourself or anyone else alright?" She said kindly.

Jesy's cheeks heated. "Well . . . if you say so . . ." she traced fingers along the fabric of her bed.

"Yes I do say so." Dr Jung set her notebooks on the nightstand before clasping her hands at her knee. "So, tell me about it all. The Instagram page, why you felt it necessary to do all of that, why you threatened to end your life when your friends asked you to come clean and how being punished and staying in your room with no electronics makes you feel,"

Jesy kept remembering how Leigh-Anne behaved earlier. The hyperventilating, the crying, the zombie-like blank outs . . . that was all pretty hard to watch. I've seen it before but jeez. The chick fainted in her doorway. Is that how she just lives? What was even going on in Leigh's brain for Jesy to cause her to have such an intense reaction? And why was she suddenly so into seeing me if she knew she would f*cking die? Was it really just kindness? Was it the suicide scare? It was definitely the mention of suicide and the fact that Leigh's sister-

"Is that chick okay?" The question rolled off her tongue.

Dr Jung blinked. "Uhhh who? Leigh-Anne?"

"Yeah. Who else?" Jesy wasn't exactly concerned but more intrigued. This sort of stuff was weird and she did not understand it.

Dr Jung sighed. "She's fine but we're not here to talk about her-"

"Since when do people not talk about her? She's like the talk of the town-"

"No she's not. Jesy you need to focus on yourself right now okay?" Dr Jung asked about the Instagram scandal and Jesy's feelings once again.

Jesy rubbed a hand down her face. "I did all of that because I saw that people saw me as the good guy for once and I wanted to keep it that way. I was gaining followers because people thought I was a saviour so I kept at it. That's it."

"But why? Why do you need people's validation so much?" Dr Jung asked carefully.

Jesy narrowed her eyes. "Because it makes me feel good."

"You do know that self-worth comes from within right? If you rely on people to feel good then you'll constantly be in a cycle of trying to get people to say nice things about you by doing whatever you have to to get them to do that. And it's not all the time that what you do will make people like you, Jesy." Dr Jung said.