Love is a Broken Window | Cricky [C]

75 | Questions

I was really tired when I wrote this forgive me it sucks whoops

Also pic of Bryan & Johnnie on the side or above or wherever it is haha

| Chris' POV |

I walked onto the bus to see Balz, Devin, and Ryan had already got situated. They were a little ahead of Ricky and I due to our argument. Just like Rick said though, I learned to fake a smile for the camera. We set up an interview with our favorite interviewer; BryanStars. The fans love him too.

I gave him a bro-hug as I greeted him. "Hey man. How've you been?" He asked.

"Good, thanks. It's been hectic." I replied.

"That's Warped." Balz spoke through a mouth full of chips.

Ryan stared at him. "Are you really going to eat during the interview?"

"Noooo."

"Give me those!" Ryan scoffed, grabbing the bag of chips and throwing them out of Balz's reach.

"You suck." Balz snit.

"Welcome back to the Motionless bus." I joked to Bryan.

He laughed, and started setting up for the interview. "Where'd Johnnie go? Johnnie!"

"Sorry!" A spastic kid spoke as he came back to the living room area of the bus. "The baby distracted me! She's so frickin' cute!"

Devin chuckled. "Thanks. She gets the cuteness from Shiloh though."

I sat down next to Devin on the couch with a sigh. "I don't think ass-kissing is going to help your cause." I whispered.

"Ditto." He muttered as his eyes quickly glanced at Ricky.

Great. So he heard that? Did the others hear? God I hope not. Devin hears and sees everything for some reason. I'm hoping that's all it was.

In a weird way, I was glad someone else was here. That way Ricky and I couldn't fight. We were fine doing it in front of the guys, but not someone that's a casual friend. Maybe doing an interview can help Ricky and I both pull out of our funk.

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"So this question comes from a few fans on Twitter. A lot of the band has different sexual orientations, and a lot of people have been asking if you'd talk about your coming out experiences." Oh, he had to go there...Thankfully he turned the mic to Devin first.

"Um, mine wasn't too bad. I came out in high school and I was lucky enough to have very accepting friends and parents. I did get bullied, but back then I didn't realize it was just training for being in a band." He laughed. "You get just as much hate for the way you dress or act."

"Yeah, I find it kind of funny," Ricky added. "We get people yelling at us on the street or whatever, going, "hey you're a fuckin' fag" and I'm like, "yeah I am thanks." It's amazing the look on their face."

The guys laughed. I've seen him do that before and it's kind of funny. He hasn't been as vocal or hate filled in recent years though. Just quiet and depressed.

"Do people actually do that?" Bryan asked.

"Oh yeah!" Ricky chuckled.

"I think when we were in high school, being gay or bi or whatever, wasn't as accepted. It's gotten way better just in the past few years." Devin said. "But when I was in high school, I used to get hate notes stuffed in my locker and shit."

"The best part about that though is when you're gay, you have a good gay-dar. And so there would be football players giving me shit, and I'd just laugh it off because I knew some of them did it out of denial. And I'll be damned, they'd end up coming out like senior year or something." Ricky added.

"So you were out in high school too?" Bryan asked him.

"Yeah, I was. I grew up in a pretty small town on the outskirts of Seattle. It was never really a big deal for me. I never one day just yelled it from the mountain tops, but everyone knew. Well everyone but my parents. Like my whole town knew before them and one day they sat me down and asked me if I was gay. That was hard for me, but everything else was just like second nature really."

"What about you, Chris?"

"Um... I, uh..." Fuck, what do I say? I never actually came out fully. Just one day told everyone I was dating Ricky. "I guess it was like Ricky. I never had an official coming out. It was just apart of who I was. As it should be, and that's the best advice I could give to anyone struggling with coming out. If it's who you are, don't be ashamed of it."

"Good advice. So a lot of people have been asking about your daughter, Ghost."

"Bring her out!" Ryan suggested.

Devin smiled as Shiloh walked over and handed him Bella. "This is my beautiful fiancé, by the way." He said as he gestured to Shiloh.

"Fiancé?" Bryan asked, surprised.

"Yes. Love of my life, other than this troublemaker." He smiled down at Bella.

"She's not even a year old and doing her first interview!" Balz chuckled. "Still not as cute as my children."

"Your children are dogs." Devin scoffed.

"They're still my children! And if we were on the other bus, I would have them sitting on my lap too!"

Bryan laughed. "Okay, next question. Who's the most guilty of waking everyone up at night."

"Ricky!" Balz and Ryan said in unison.

"Even more than the baby?"

"She actually doesn't cry much." I replied. "Ricky has night terrors."

"Chris is really good about helping me through them though." Ricky softly smiled.

"Which brings me to the next question. You two are a couple now! For how long and what's been your best memory together so far?"

Ricky glanced at me. "I don't know... how long have we been together?"

"I guess we never kept track." I laughed and looked over his gorgeous face. "As far as best memory... Everyday. The best thing in the world for me is waking up and falling asleep next to him. He always sings in the mornings, and he does this adorable thing where he nuzzles into me when we're cuddling. Just the small things like that are amazing to me. I couldn't live without them."