Love is a Broken Window | Cricky [C]

24 | Moody

| Ricky's POV |

Normally the show is where I can escape for a while. Not tonight though, because on that stage, I was surrounded by all my problems. Jani and Shiloh stood side stage, watching the show. I didn't move much from my mic stand because I didn't want to get close to Chris or Ghost. I went over and messed with Balz from time to time, and Ryan and I played together. That was it. I ignored the other two, because they are both so moody!

As the encore was at a close, I got off of the stage. My breath was short, but I was smiling. Nothing compares to the feeling of the stage! As a guitar tech took my guitar to be stowed away, Jani came over and kissed me on my sweaty cheek.

"I missed watching you play!" He smiled brilliantly.

"I like looking over during songs and seeing you standing there." I admitted bashfully.

The house lights turned back on, so we could see each other better now. It was hard to stay mad at him. Especially when he has those soft blue eyes, and a beautiful smile. He has been through a lot with me too. Jani might have cheated on me a few times, hurt me physically and emotionally, but there's also been many good memories between us. It's be difficult to just throw away those four years. I'd miss him if I did too. I really would.

Jani pulled me closer to him. "C'mere, post concert pic."

I giggled. "Okay."

I put my hand across his chest, resting it on his shoulder furthest from me. His hand was around my lower back. Leaning my head against him, I smiled as he snapped a quick picture.

"Dorks." Ryan joked as he passed us.

"You're just jealous!" I teased.

He chuckled. "I do miss Allie."

"I know, dude!" Balz added. "It's only been a week and we have another two months left."

"Don't remind me." Vinny whined.

"At least Chris and Ricky get to take their boyfriends on tour." Balz said.

I rolled my eyes playfully. "Maybe next tour we should get a second bus and bring everyone. Even the pets. Hey that reminds me, who's watching the cat while we're gone?" I asked Jani.

"Ryan-Ashley is." He replied. "Hey if you all want to be assholes about us taking a cute picture, why don't you get into a picture with us?"

"Weeeellll, if you insist." Balz chimed.

I laughed, getting pulled into Jani again. "Shiloh, you want in the pic?" I asked.

He shrugged. "It's okay."

"Oh, get in here!" Jani smiled as he pulled Shiloh in on the other side of him.

Ryan and Balz stood behind us. Vinny got up on the edge of the drum riser and leaned forward, putting his hands on Ryan and Balz's shoulders.

"Hey guys! Get over here!" Ryan yelled at Chris, Josh, and Ghost.

"I'd rather not. My makeup is run." Ghost said. That's never stopped him before, he's just being a drama queen.

Chris didn't say anything. He just turned away. Josh did come over and got in the picture next to me. We took the picture, then shortly after I began to yawn. Time to get to bed already.

The crew started to pack up. We walked to the bus. Some of the guys did pass out with their makeup on, but I managed to stay awake enough to take mine off. So did Jani. Him and I climbed into my bunk. I did one last check of my phone, as I always do before bed.

Jani had posted both pictures - the one of just us, and the one with the guys -on his Instagram.

On the one of the guys, he wrote on the caption, "The party rocks on to the next city! Des Moines next!" Of course, people were asking two questions; Where's Chris & Ghost? And, Who's Shiloh? Well I think Chris can answer both those questions, not us.

The picture of just us, he wrote, "Sweaty-straight-off-the-stage-selfie! My Baby killed it tonight in Chicago! I'm so proud of him. I love watching him perform and live his passion so much, more than anything in this world! So incredibly lucky to call this one MINE!"

I knew that was a bit of a dig towards Ghost, the "MINE" comment. Nevertheless, it was incredibly sweet. Some people in the comments were asking about my kiss with Ghost, but most just said "awww" and left it at that.

I posted the same picture, putting on the caption, "Guess who surprised me tonight in Chicago? I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend! Thank you, Babe, for coming out and making me a little less homesick. Only two more months until we return to our home sweet home with our cat-children. Thanks for everyone who has made this tour amazing so far! Iowa, you're next!"

After posting it, I shut my phone off and rolled over in bed. I buried my head in Jani's chest, taking in his sweet smell. Then I fell asleep to the rhythmic sounds of his breathing.