Love is a Broken Window | Cricky [C]

63 | Truth

| Chris' POV |

The guys and I had all gotten settled in on the buses. We have two, so we could bring our families. Ricky, Devin, Shiloh, Josh, the baby, and I were all on one bus. Ryan, Allie, Balz, and Ryan-Ashley were on the other bus, along with Vinny and the other roadies. It was nice to have some room to stretch out, and I strangely liked having Bella around. She kept me in good spirits.

Everything Andy and Ronnie told me was still bothering me. I knew I had to get Shiloh's side of the story. For all I know, they could have been lying to start trouble. Why they would want to, I don't know, but they have tried to start shit with the band before. 

Shiloh was sitting on the couch, playing with Bella. Devin was working on his computer at the table, and kept happily glancing over at them. He really loved them. I could see it in the look in his eyes, in the way he looked at him. I hope to God that all this about Shiloh being unfaithful isn't true. 

"Shi?" I spoke as I walked into the room. "Can I talk to you in private for a minute?" 

He glanced over at Devin, who looked at me with concern. I sighed, and Devin decided to just go with it. I knew he was uncomfortable with it but he could be thankful for this in the end. 

"Go head." He said. "I'll watch Bella."

"Okay." Shiloh responded.

He stood up and handed the baby to Devin. She was wrapped up in a black blanket with white skulls on it. Bella was about seven months, and she made noises constantly. I'm sure she's close to her first words. Devin help her close, smiling at his little angel. 

Shiloh followed me back to the back lounge. He closed the door and we both sat down on the couch. 

"I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but I had an interesting conversation with Andy Biersack and Ronnie Radke yesterday." I started out. There was already a look of alarm in his eyes. "Andy said you've slept with their entire band, while you were with Ashley. Ronnie told me you dated Jacky too, and cheated with him with TJ. If this all is true, not only do I have to worry about you having such a history of cheating, but if the others knew you were ever associated with TJ... Look, I just need your side of the story." 

Shiloh had tears in his eyes. He sniffled, wiping his tears. "It's... No, that's not it... and I can't believe you believed that." He muttered. 

I set my hand on his knee. "Well tell me the truth." I said, and he began crying even more. I pulled him against my chest. "Shiloh, it's okay. Just tell me." 

"I didn't want to sleep with TJ... I..." He took a few deep breaths as he fixed his hair. I ran my hand up and down his back as he recomposed himself. "I-I'm sorry. I... It's hard for me to talk about. I, um, I was a roadie for Falling In Reverse on the Bury the Hatchet Tour. Jacky and I dated for the duration of the tour. TJ always watched me, stared even. One night he took me on their bus, and locked me in the back bedroom. I didn't want to have sex with him... but he told me I was asking for it."

My eyes widened. "He raped you?" 

"Well... that's kind of a harsh word..." 

"Shiloh, it was against your will. If you didn't want it to happen, then it was rape. Why didn't you report it or tell anyone? How many times did it happen?" 

"Five times. I just didn't want trouble." He said. This reminded me of Ricky and Jani's situation so much. 

"You can't let him get away with this. I know he's an asshole. I used to date him." I confessed. "It makes me sick to know I actually dated someone who would rape anyone. I'm sorry he did this to you, Shiloh."

"It's fine. It's the past." Shi sniffled. "It wasn't why Jacky and I broke up, by the way. We just didn't work." 

"Well what about Ashley?" 

"He's a drunk. His band knows it and they all comforted be at different points of time about it. I mean, Andy was a little aggressive about it, but I did actually want to sleep with him, and Jinxx... and Jake... and CC. I do feel bad about it though." 

"Is that the only time you've ever cheated on someone? Well, other than me." 

He laughed a bit. "I promise it is. Chris... I just want you to know, I'd never do anything to hurt Devin. I love him more than anything in this world. Him and that little baby mean everything to me. And it's true that... sex with the one you love is a hundred times more amazing than sex with just some random person. I'd never leave him or cheat on him." 

I smiled. "Good. He is one of my best friends. I don't want to see him hurt. And you, you're apart of our family now too." 

"Thank you, Chris."