Love is a Broken Window | Cricky [C]

73 | Pride

| Devin's POV |

It was painful to have Shiloh be so cold to me. Sure, we've bickered in the past, but we've never actually had a fight where I ended up on the couch. We needed to smooth things over.

He went to the front of the bus, baby in hand, and opened the fridge. Shiloh completely ignored me. He sat the baby down on the couch and propped her up with pillows as he began to warm a bottle for her. I sat down next to Bella and offered her my hand to play with. She pulled and teethed on my fingers.

"Shi?" I whispered.

"I hope your hands are clean if you're letting the baby chew on them." He sneered.

"I took a shower twenty minutes ago." I replied at a low tone.

He leaned against the wall and stared at the microwave, waiting on it to be done. "I see you did get stitches."

"Yeah, you were right, Babe. I did need some." I admitted. "Can we please talk about this?"

The microwave dinged and he grabbed her bottle. Shiloh tested it on his wrist, as any good parent should do. Then he set it on the table next to the couch. I moved over to give him some space. He sat down and pulled Bella into his lap.

"There's nothing to talk about." Shiloh muttered. He grabbed Bella's bottle and began helping her drink it, which caused her to stop fussing.

"Obviously there is, or you wouldn't be giving me the cold shoulder." I stated.

"Fine." He snapped. "You want to know why I'm mad? Because when I said yes to your marriage proposal, I wasn't planing on marrying Jani West. I was going to marry Devin Sola. That's the man I love."

"What are you saying?" I was completely baffled. Why was he trying to draw comparisons between Jani and I?!

"I'm saying what you did last night, was not only out of character for you, but it was something Jani would have done. You talk about how much you hate him, yet you go and pull a stunt just like him!" Shiloh explained. "I don't want a spineless coward of a man like my father, but I also don't want a testosterone driven angry bull. It's one thing to be overprotective, it's another to be that selfish. You've only put us in more danger. Now, the entire BVB and ETF fandoms hate us, and hate you for what you did."

"I... I... I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking..."

"That's the problem Devin, you don't think." He mumbled.

Shiloh looked down at the baby in his arms. His hair fell in his face, and he wouldn't lift his head again.

"Baby," I spoke, reaching my hand towards his face.

He jerked back. "Don't touch me. Not when I'm mad at you."

I brought my hand back against my chest. "How can I fix that? I don't want you mad at me." He didn't say anything. I moved off the couch and knelt down in front of him. I set my hands on his knees. "Shiloh? Shiloh, I can't live like this. I can't have you not on my side. I love you."

He sniffled a little. Was he crying? I couldn't see because he wouldn't look at me and his hair was covering his face. He set the baby's bottle on the table next to him. Then Shiloh kissed her head.

He gently pushed my hands off his knees, mumbling, "We need some space. You need some time to show me you're better than what you did last night. An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind."

"I... okay." I whispered.

I stood up, and softly kissed the top of his head. He didn't move. It'd be best to leave him be. I went to go check on Chris and Ricky. Maybe Chris can help me figure out how exactly I'm going to make this up to Shiloh. Chris was always better with romance than I was.

He was still sitting on the floor with Ricky. However, Ricky now was sat up by himself and not crying. His face was completely flushed, but at least he was stable.

"Hey." I said softly as I knelt down. "How are you doing?"

"Better." Ricky smiled. "Chris always knows how to make me feel better."

"I know, he's kind of an expert at it." I said. I sat down against the opposite wall.

Chris shrugged. "I've just known him so long, that's all."

"No, I mean, you're good at making anyone feel better." I replied. "And... I could use your expertise in that area."

"Shiloh?" He asked.

"Yeah. He's mad at me for getting in that fight with TJ. He said eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. I know he's right but how am I supposed to fix this after I've already done it?"

"Apologize."

"I did!"

"To TJ." He stated.

"What?"

"What? That's what he wants!" Chris said. "I don't want it, you don't want it. But that's what he was implying. You need to be the better man."

I sighed and stared at the ground. He can't be serious? I guess it would make me the better man, to apologize, but do I want to be the better man? I really don't want to apologize to TJ, because he deserved what he got! That son of a bitch!

Eye for an eye does make the whole world blind... And I would do anything to keep Shiloh... Should I really swallow my pride?

A/N: What do you guys think? What should Dev do? :)