Born A Weapon

out of control

(Tw: discussions of murder | mentions of manipulation and Stockholm syndrome | foul language)

The end of the schoolyear was coming near, soon id have to go back home, and I honestly had no idea if I would return to Hogwarts in the new schoolyear with how things were going regarding father. The conversation about heirship and taking over the "family business" for a lack of better words had been creeping up more and more and at first, I had disputed it entirely still holding onto the notion I wanted to help people not hurt them

May was coming to a close and school would be out on June 27th owls and newts where in full swing sending most upper years into a full-on frenzy. Every day after classes ended the libraries and study groups would be flooded with students and it was almost impossible to find a place to study or take the books you needed

Remus who had his own study groups which could hold up to 40 students was booked within minutes every day and even with Sirius's help it could hold a maximum of 50 students per day for 4 hours. I had a bit of an advantage in that regard as I had asked earlier that year if they could add me as a permanent attender on Wednesdays and Fridays

Professor McGonagall and professor snape also had their own study clubs which were booked every day with a limit of 35-40 students per two hours and it was a hassle between students to get even one timeslot in the two weeks leading up to the exams students in 7th year were also holding their own study clubs but those where very limited and mostly only for the friends or siblings of those people and if they weren't then you'd pay upwards of 10 galleons for a single hour

I didn't bother with that even if I had the money, but I witnessed kids laying down 30-50 galleons for a single hour which was absolutely insane and even after people reported this to professors it kept happening

Honestly, I wasn't in the castle that much anyways skipping classes in favour of being with father practicing magic and learning about my family and other old tales. The questions I had about my schoolwork would normally go to Remus or Sirius but now I was always asking father about it

What I didn't realize was that father was using me to test spells and trying to infiltrate my mind and see what I was thinking of. it started small with little memories here and there but soon he was taking full memories of mine and altering them

Memories didn't match up; it was hard to distinguish which memories where real, and which were altered

One Wednesday afternoon me and luna were sitting in her dorm after Remus's study sessions we were reorganizing our binders when a full stack of papers fell out of mine, luna rushed over and started helping me pick them up when she saw most of it was about legilimens and the imperius curse

L: why is there so much about these spells delphini.. What are you planning

D: I'm not planning anything I was just studying some stuff with my father about them, he reckons I'll be able to do legilimensy eventually with some help

L: that's...that's not good love... I- I don't think you should let him in your head you remember what happened to ginny and harry when they were being controlled by him don't you??

D: he isn't controlling my mind just taking a gander around you know. I'm not letting him past some surface level memories of course

L: well... still I don't want him in your mind delphini its dangerous and if he were to get past your blocking then he-

D: he isn't going to do that chèrie, he knows I don't want him to go past it, and he said he wouldn't... promised he wouldn't

L: dell...when has he actually kept his promise?