Teachers Pet

Note From Author

Trigger warning, please don't read if you can't handle it... I know loss can be a triggering thing for others...

I will be taking a break from writing. I have no idea when I will be back, but I promise to return.

Yesterday morning, 3/12/22, me and my boyfriend lost everything to an apartment fire including our two youngest fur babies. We loved our cats so much, none of this feels real. We woke up today in tears... Our anniversary is 3/13/20, but we spent our two year anniversary mourning such a horrible loss.

Mostly everything can be replaced, but we can never get our fur babies back. We lost so much so fast.

I love writing and I love this story. But I lost my laptop and my computer and any notes I had written on paper. When I can think clearly and when things don't hurt as much as they do now, I will come back to Teachers Pet... But for now, I need to take this time to heal and start over.

Thank you all for your continuous support, and I hope to be back soon 💜

* Update *

7/2/22 12:30am

Thank you to everyone who left such kind words and sent messages that were so heartfelt they brought tears to my eyes...

Thank you!

It will be four months since I've tried to write anything. I've been in such a state. The hurt is still there. Not as much as before, but... still.

We lost so much that day. Not just our cats... not just belongings either. But our comfort, memories, security, safety, and the place that became our first home.

Sometimes, I zone out. I'm back on the corner of my street, right across from my apartment building watching it burn. And I can do nothing but feel helpless as I watch the fire consume our home so fast it's unreal.

Sometimes, I sit for a long time and imagine different scenarios of "what if"...

Sometimes, when my boyfriend is sleeping... I touch his arm or his back or his face just to know that he is still here and that he got out and that the fire didn't take everything.

There are days when all I want to do is cry, but I can't let the trauma consume me.

I am moving forward, but I am still in shock. I am staying optimistic, but I am still angry. I am healing, but I am still hurt.

With time I will be okay.

As for Teacher's Pet, I can't wait to start writing again. I've started making notes and setting up an area where I can write in my new house. It isn't what I had before, but it will have to do. I'm so excited to start writing again.

Thank you all again! 💜