A Soldier's Life

Chapter 38 - Walks and Talks

Lizzie's POV:

It took me by surprise when I received a text from Y/n. I had been desperate to go and see her, but I had been avoiding going to visit. Even after Scarlett told me that she said it was ok, there was a part of me that stopped me from going. It was screaming at me that I had hurt her, and she didn't need me anymore.

Before everything happened that night with Scarlett, Y/n and I's friendship had really been growing. Y/n always treated each of us as normal people. It was nice having a friend who wasn't in this life that I could hang out with and talk to. Although I had joked about it at the beginning, Y/n really had started to become one of my best friends.

As soon as I sent the text, I regretted saying I couldn't see her or Ava anymore. Knowing Y/n she is probably more upset on Ava's behalf than her own. Thankfully I think Ava may have started to forgive me. Though I'm determined to earn the title of Auntie back! Now I just needed to put on my big girl pants and go and face the music with her Mom.

Unfortunately, I was filming a lot so I only had evenings free, which is when I knew Ava would visit Y/n so I didn't want to intrude. Thankfully though by Tuesday, I had the afternoon off, so decided to make my way to the hospital straight from set so I couldn't chicken out.

After I parked up, I sat in the car, still worried about going in. What if she hated me and just wanted me to come in so she could yell at me? No, Y/n isn't like that. This is just my anxiety getting the better of me. I quickly pulled out my phone to call Scarlett before I managed to fall into a panic attack. Thankfully she picked up after 2 rings.

Scarlett: Hey Lizzie, aren't you meant to be at the hospital?

Lizzie: I am...

The sound of panicked voice and lack of finishing a sentence must have sent Scarlett into her own panic.

Scarlett: Oh my God, has something happened? Is Y/n ok?!

She rushed out down the phone, and I instantly felt guilty.

Lizzie: No, everything is fine. Y/n is fine. Sorry I didn't mean to worry you.

Scarlett: Oh, thank God, you scared me. But hang on. If you're at the hospital, why are you calling?

Lizzie: I can't seem to get out of my car. I'm worried about seeing her.

I explained, to which Scarlett sighed down the phone.

Scarlett: Lizzie, she is not going to yell at you or tell you she doesn't want to see you. She told me just the other day that she missed you. You both just need to talk it all out and then you'll be back on track.

Lizzie: I know but...

Scarlett: No buts Lizzie. I hurt her more than anyone and she is giving me a second chance. We're already on our way to being friends again, so there is no way that the same won't happen for you.

Lizzie: You're right. Sorry.

Scarlett: You don't need to be sorry Lizzie. This is just your anxiety playing with your head. Just go in there and talk to her.

Lizzie: Ok, I'm going. Thanks for this.

Scarlett: No problem Lizzie, I'm always here for you. I gotta get to set but I'll call you later.

I felt much better after my talk with Scar. She always knew the right thing to say and she understood me better than I do myself sometimes. Using the little bit of courage, I had I got out the car and made my way to Y/n's room. I knocked on the door and heard her invite me in.