You ARE My World

Grayson

12 hours later I was sitting up in bed holding a 5 lb 2 oz baby boy. He was born at 5:30 Pm, and was having a breathing problem. But my dad assured me that we can live with that, and soon his lungs will be fully developed and he will be 100% healthy. My uncle walked in and started to cry. "Angel face! You're just like your mother giving birth to babies early!" He said. My mom laughed. "Must run in the family." I tried to joke. I wanted to be happy, and I was that he was here... But I was scared. I knew nothing about taking care of a sick baby. "What's his name?" He came over looking at him and taking pictures. I looked at Steven who smiled. "His name is Grayson." I said announcing to everyone. My mom looked at me. "That's unique. I like it." She smiled I nodded. "I got to name Addison, so I let Steven name him, and I really love the name he picked. He gave me a list and we discussed them together. But when I saw him, I know that we made the right choice." I explained. Lucy knocked on the door and my dad let her in. Addison came walking in and when she saw me she got the 'O' face and she smacked her hands on her cheeks. She does this when she is surprised. Seeing Addison made my heart smile and I relaxed. "Mommy!" She said running to my bed side. I was still sore so I couldn't lift her into the bed. "Could you lift her Steven?" I asked. he nodded. He set her into my lap, and I set Grayson into hers. "Beetle, this is your baby brother Grayson." I said. She squealed. "Baby!" I laughed. "Yes. Baby." Steven said. "Home?" She asked. I nodded. "You're going to go home with Papa tonight, and mommy will be home tomorrow. Grayson has to stay here for a while." I tried to explain. She poutted. "No. Mommy home pease." She stammered. I frowned. "Beetle. Mommy can't leave. I wish I could." I explained. I had Steven take Grayson and I hugged her. "I love you baby girl. I love you, I love you." I said squeezing her. She started to cry. "Beetle. What's wrong?" I asked. "No baby. I want mommy home." She stated. I looked at my brother or mom for help. "I wish I could come home with you. But beetle, I can't doctor says so." I tried to explain to her. She started to throw a temper tantrum. My brother grabbed me from her and took her out to the car. I let out a sigh. "He's not even 12 hours old, and she's already jealous." I said. My mom looked at me. "Don't worry sweetie. She's just trying to push your buttons and see how far she can push you. We will get through this." She said. I nodded. Eventually a nurse came in to take Grayson for some testing. And everyone decided to leave. After everyone left, Steven came and sat with me in the bed. "What's going on in that head of yours?" He asked finally. I started to cry. "I know nothing about raising a baby who is sick. I'm scared. I'm so scared Steven." I said. He realized that I was really upset and got nervous. "Hey, I'm scared too baby." He said opening up to me. "But we are strong. We are going to get through this. And I promise we can do this. We are good parents." He said assuring me. "It's alright to be scared. It's normal. But I promise you that we are going to be the best parents to both of them." He said kissing my forehead. I nodded. I asked the nurse if I could get up and walk around and she handed me discharge papers."You are free to go. I got the doctor to let you go early. I heard your little one cry earlier, and it made me sad." She said taking pitty on me. I laughed. "Well thank you. I appreciate it." I smiled. "When can I bring Grayson home?" I asked hopeful she shurgged. "Some time next week. We have him on oxygen right now. But he will be alright. He just needs a little help breathing until his lungs can catch up." She explained to me. I nodded. I signed the papers and I wrote down contact information. "I will be back in the morning." I said walking out. It felt weird walking out without a baby. And that made me feel sad. Steven walked behind me and he must've heard me sob. "What's wrong?" He asked. "It just feels so weird to walk in pregnant, and walk out without a baby." I said sad. He stopped. "We will be able to bring him home next week. You act like he died." He said getting angry. I was emotional from the horomone imbalance and I didn't need his shit right now. "NEvermind. Sorry I said anything. Just take me to Addison." I stammered. He got angry. He didn't say anything to me the whole ride. When we got to my parents they looked surprised. I explained to them what was going on and they laughed. I went upstairs to Lucas's room and Addison got out of bed and ran to me. "Mommy!" She said. I picked her up even though it hurt and squeezed. "I told you momma would be home." I said. "Baby?" She asked. I frowned. "He's going to come home in one week." I explained to her. She nodded. "How are you?" I asked. She nodded again. "I sorry mommy." She said. I knew that she was sorry for making a scene in the hospital. And I wasn't going to scold her. "Don't worry Beetle. It's okay." I said putting her down. She walked over to Lucas and he picked her up and set her in bed. "How you feeling?" He asked. "Tired." I said rubbing my eyes. "Here. Get into bed with her." He said. I shrugged. "Then where are you going to sleep?" I asked. "Don't worry about me. I want you to be comfortable." He assured me. I felt bad, but I got into the bed and he covered me up and kissed my head. "Love ya Pip. I'll talk to Steven." He said. I turned. "How'd you know?" I asked. He shrugged. "You two are always attached at the hip the only time your not, you are arguing or disagreeing." He explained. I nodded. I was glad to be so close to my big brother. And I hope that my kids can be as close as we are some day.