You ARE My World

My Whole World is Falling Apart

"Babe?" Steven asked me trying to wake me up. I opened my eyes slightly to see if I was dreaming. "Yeah?" I asked with my sleepy voice. "We have to go shopping today, when did you want to wake up?" He asked. I smiled. I turned around to face him and stretched out. Today we had plans to get our wedding planned. "Right now." I said pulling him into bed with me. Addison came running in and tried to climb the bed. When she couldn't Steven helped her up. "Tank you!" She said giggling. I looked over at the time, and I noticed it was 10 am. "Why'd you let me sleep so long?" I asked. He shrugged. "You obviously needed the sleep baby. I was alright with her, Grayson has been up on and off since 5:30 any how." He said assuring me that it was alright. "What are we doing today?" He asked. I smiled. "We are going to get flowers, the DJ, and catering today." I explained. "Wait, I think we already have the DJ." I said taking back what I just said. I got out of bed and went into the bathroom to shower. I saw that Steven's phone was in there so, I decided that I was going to take a picture on his phone. I lit up the screen, and I noticed that he had a text from a girl named Mandy. I shrugged it off thinking it was someone from work until I noticed out of the corner of my eye that she called him baby. I quickly locked the door and I went through the messages. They were talking about meeting up and hooking up later this week. They have exchanged some 'I love yous.' I got upset and instead of causing a scene, I took a shower. When I was done Steven came over to me and tried to be flirty with me. I got dressed and grabbed three suit cases. "Where are you going? And what are you doing?" He asked. "I think that you and I both know what I am doing." I said calmly. "What are you talking about?" He asked. "Mandy texted you, and she said that Tuesday was a good day for her." I said sternly. His face went white. "Let me explain." He said. I chuckled. "There is nothing to explain Steven. You obviously are cheating. And I don't do cheating. I don't put up with it. And to think all of these years, I put my heart and sould into you. Are you kidding me?" I asked starting to cry. He tried to come over to me and hug me. "GET AWAY!" I yelled. I packed up clothes, grabbed blankets and pillows, food and anything else I could and packed it into the the car. I put the kids in the car and I sped out of the drive way to my parents house. When I got there everyone was sitting out front watching the boys play on the swings. "Hey Pip! WHat are you doing here?" My dad asked. I grabbed the kids out and I let Addison go play in the yard with the other kids. Mom noticed all the things I had packed in the back of the Yukon and looked at me. "What's going on?" She asked. I set Grayson down and I started to cry. "I am done. I was going to take a picture on Steven's phone this morning when I noticed that he had a text from a girl named Mandy who was calling him baby. So I read all the other messages, and I saw that this tuesday they were going to hook up. And this won't be the first time." I said trying not to scream. My mom's eyes got wide. "What?!" She said angry. I nodded. Lucas pulled me in for a hug and I sobbed. Octive was there and when she came out she got confused. "What's going on?" She asked. When my dad had told her she got into her car and got on the phone with Steven and let him have it. "What was I doing wrong? " I asked. My dad shook his head. "Nothing Amelia. It's his loss." He said trying to make me feel better. Lucas asked dad to watch the kids and he nodded. He helped me up and brought me over to his car. He called Octive to get in the back seat and we took off. "Where are we going?" I asked. "For a drive." He said. I put my elbow on the window and rested my head on my hand. We pulled into my apartment complex and I looked at Lucas. "I don't want to speak to him." I said looking at him. He nodded. "You're not. I am. Give me the key." He said holding out his hand. I got out of the car and I went in with him. Steven was on the couch with a beer sulking in his own misery. "What the actual fuck Steven?" Lucas started. Steven got up. "I don't even know what to say." Steven said to me. I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, but I do." Lucas said. "Amelia has done nothing but love you unconditionally for the past 7 years, she ended a friendship and a relationship for you to try and make things work for YOUR kids. And you just threw that all away! How could you? How could do that to her?" He asked getting in his face. I grabbed his arm and told him to get out of his face. "I'm sorry. It was a stupid mistake And I don't ever expect Em to forgive me." He said to him. "Don't call me Em. My name is Amelia." I corrected him. I started to tear up again. "What wasn't I doing right? Was I not giving you enough? Am I not pretty anymore? What? What is it?!" I asked. He set down his beer and he came a little closer to me. "No, it's not that you aren't pretty. You're the most beautiful girl I have ever met. It's just, things aren't what they used to be." He said. "Then just leave." I said calmly. "You're right. I should've. And I regret hurting you this way, but I didn't want you to get hurt." He said. I nodded. "Well, I'm just going to get the rest of the stuff for the kids and we will be out of your hair." I explained. He nodded and sat back on the couch. I grabbed the things I forgot in the moment and walked back down stairs. I got to the door and noticed that Steven was crying. I let out a "Pssh." And he looked at me. "Bye Steven. We will work out times that you can see the kids. But for now, they are in my care." I explained. He nodded knowing that I wasn't going to budge. He put his head back down and I walked out of the apartment. Lucas came and got the stuff from me and I turned around to look at the house. My life was falling apart as I walked away. I ran back into the apartment and kissed Steven. "I'm sorry. I needed that." I said when I was done. He didn't say anything and he nodded again. I walked back out and got into the car. Lucas brought me back to our parent's house and I got on the phone looking for a place to go. "Amelia. You aren't going anywhere. You will stay here." My mother said sternly. I shrugged. "I don't want to intrude." I explained. She laughed. Don't worry about it. I don't want you going any where." She said again. I nodded. Lucas helped me unload both of the cars and helped me bring all the stuff up to my room. Olivia had taken over Addison's old room, but they both can sleep in there now. I sat down on the couch and threw the blanket from the back of it in the hall way. It still smelled like Steven. I started to unpack my stuff because I didn't like a messy room. Once I was done I went downstairs to feed Grayson. I picked him up and I looked at him. He looked like Steven, and I started to cry. My dad took over when he saw me, and I thanked him. I answered the door when I heard a knock. It was Tristen. As soon as I opened the door he had me in a bear hug. "Steven texted me. To make sure you were alright. What a fucking douche. I'm so sorry Hun." He said hugging me. I cried. He brought me outside and shut the door. "It's alright. Everything is going to be alright." He said rubbing my back. "You didn't have to come see if I was alright." I said in his sweatshirt. He nodded. "I know that. But I wanted too. You have no idea how bad I want to punch his teeth in." He said still hugging me. He hugged me until I stopped crying. "Want to go swimming?" I asked. He nodded. I went upstairs to go get my suit on and he took off his shirt. When we got to the back yard Octive and Lucas were in the pool already with the kids. I got in and I walked around to get used to it. Tristen jumped in and cannon balled right in front of me getting me wet. I laughed. "I win!" He said. I looked at him confused. "I made you smile. I win." He said. I let out a little grin and nodded. "Fine. You win." I said. He let out a "YEE-YEE!" And I laughed again. Addison came swimming over to me with her tube and I picked her up. She was such a mommy's girl. And I was glad that she was. I needed her right now, just as much as she needed me. I looked at her and smiled. "Addie. Tell Tristen who you love." I said. She laughed. "Oh mommy! I luv you, and oliviy and, TT, and daddy, oh and Loutos! She said. I laughed and Tristen smiled. "I love ya too kiddo." He said tickling her. I let her go and I got out because I was cold. I grabbed my towel and dried off. I walked over to the mini bar and poured myself a drink. I overheard a conversation between Lucas and Tristen.

Lucas- Man? Do you love her?

Tristen- Well of course. She means a lot to me. I just am trying to be there for her.

Lucas- Why don't you tell her that?

Tristen- She's hurting. I don't want to hurt her more. I am willing to wait, even if that's forever. And I will always be there for her.

Lucas- Good man you are.

Tristen- I try.

Lucas- I know you do. You're good man.

I grabbed my drink and asked Lucas to watch Addison. He nodded and Tristen followed me out front. I was still upset, but knowing that Tristen wasn't going anywhere made me feel better. Later that night, after I put the kids to bed I got into bed and thought about everything that happened today. There was a knock on my bed room door, "come in." I said quietly trying not to wake Grayson. Tristen popped his head in and I smiled. He sat at the edge of my bed and pulled the blanket up over me. "I will see you tomorrow. I promise." He smiled at me. "Thank you for being there for me." I said. I started to tear up again and he put his head on my forehead. "sshhh." He said quietly. "It's going to be alright." He said. I nodded. I put my head down on the pillow and he grabbed my hand. He held it until I fell asleep, and then left.