You ARE My World

No, I've Got a Song to Learn

It was two hours after my surgery, and I was exhausted, and really sore. They doctor said everything went well, and I should recover withing 2-5 weeks. My mom brought me my phone and told me that dad would be up in a little bit to stay with me, so that way she could take the kids home and let them be kids at home. I got my phone and texted Steven.

Me- so, this is it? 8 years done? Gone? Lost? Not willing to make it work?

Steven- why make it work? It would be stressful for both you and I and especially on the kids. I'm sorry Amelia. How'd your surgery go? Need me to get the kids?

Me- oh... And Idk you can text my mom and ask. Let me know what happens.

Steven- k. Can we still be friends?

Me- I need some time. My whole life fell apart last night. And you seem to be absolutely fine with it.

Steven- well, I'm not alright? I know inhurt you, and I'm not happy with myself for getting angry and in your face. I'm sorry.

Me- no. I'm sorry.

Steven- for what?

Me- for whatever I did yo make you not love me anymore.

Steven- oh...

Me- what did I do?

Steven- nothing. Its just not the same anymore. Nothing. The sex, love, romance nothing. Its all different.

Me- oh. Sorry u feel that way.

Steven- u are going to find someone that deserves you, and can love you like there's no tomorrow. But I can't. And I'm not going  to pretend, to hurt you even more.

Me- I understand. Can I ask you something?

Steven- anything.

Me- is there another girl?:(

Steven- no. I promise.

Me- OK. Well, I'm going to go get some sleep. I'm not feeling good. Nice talking to you. Bye.

Steven- bye em.

I set my phone down and I fell asleep until I heard a knock on the door. "Come in." I said faintly. I opened one eye and saw that is was Tristen. He came over to me and showed me a bunch of sunflowers. "Awe. Thanks." I mustered a smile. He set them on the table next to me, and came over to give me a light hug so he didn't hurt me. "Lucas got into contact with me this morning and told me everything that's happened these past three days. I'm so sorry Em. You alright?" He asked in reference to Steven. "I'm fine. Just a break up no big deal." I lied and smiled. He looked at me confused. "Lucas said you were heart broken on the floor." He said questioning me. I shrugged. "It hurt a little. but I have kids to take care of. And they need me. So I can't keep being sad around them. They need their mom to be happy. I'm not going to put those kids through what I went through when I was a kid." I said referring to my mom. "Don't get me wrong, my mom was a great mom. But she was absent for a while, and I don't want to absent in their lives." I explained. He nodded. "You're something else Em." He smiled. I reached out my arms for a hug because that's what I needed right now. He hugged me, and I squeezed lightly. "I've been working on that song you wanted me to learn." He said letting go. My eyes lit up. "I want to hear." I smiled. He shook his head. "I want to master it before I sing it, and it." He winked. I smiled. "Alright. Fine." I joked. He sat with me until my dad got there and then he said he was going to go. "Tristen, you don't have to go just I got here." My dad said laughing. "No, it's okay sir. I have a song to learn." He said winking at me. I smiled and blushed a little. My dad looked at me confused and I shook my head. "Don't worry about it dad." I said. He chuckled and sat down with his coffee and today's newspaper. "So, how are you feeling?" He asked. I shrugged. "For just having surgery. Fine I guess." I said looking at him. He set down the paper and sighed. "Are you alright?" He asked in reference to Steven. I shrugged. "I will be. But I think that I am just going to go to sleep for a while." I said tired. He nodded. I closed my eyes and pretended to fall asleep. There was a knock on the door, and I kept my eyes closed. "Come in." My dad said softly. Someone walked in, and my dad sighed. "I don't think she wants you here Steven." He said quietly trying not to wake me. He set something on the table, and started to talk. "I know, and I'm not going to stay long. Just tell her that I stopped by, and that I am going to get the kids from Abby. So she can be here with her. I hope she is feeling better soon." He explained. I tried not to start to cry. "Steven. I want to talk to you. And no, I'm not going to yell. I'm saying this as a father, to her, and a friend to you. You should stay away for a while, only seeing her to get the kids. She needs time away from you, to heal. Or her anxiety will kick in again. And you and I both know that's not a good thing. We will help her get through this, and as for you, if you need anything, you can come to me anytime. Just for now, give her some space." He explained softly. "I can do that. I brought her some peanut M&M's and Raspberry truffles from the bakery she loves. Hopefully she can eat them soon. See you soon Mike." He said. I pretended to wake up, and Steven froze. "What are you doing here?" I asked nicely. He nodded. "I brought you some of your favorites, because hospitals are hell. And I am just about to leave and get the kids." He explained to me. I nodded. "Thanks Steven. See you later." I said closing my eyes again. "Bye." He said leaving. "Dad?" I asked getting his attention. "Thank you." I said again. He smiled. "I knew you weren't asleep. I just knew you didn't know how to tell him to go away nicely. You're welcome. Now really get some rest." He said getting up and covering me up.I fell asleep for the rest of the day, and I didn't wake up until the next morning.