You ARE My World

Beach Day Part 2

Everyone was just getting ready to eat their dinner when it started to rain. I grabbed everyone we could and stuck them into the cove that we were near. We ate in the cove next to one another in chit chat. Addison ate her hot dog in Luther's lap, and Grayson just looked at me. I offered him a bite of my hamburger but he didn't like it. I tried baby food as well, but I could tell he was tired. I set my plate down, and I rocked him in my arms until he fell asleep. I held him so that way I didn't have to put him on the hard ground. "This rain doesn't look like it's going to let up anytime soon." Frank mentioned. I nodded. "Everyone get their stuff packed up, and we will make a mad dash to the cars, and we can all go back to our house." My dad explained. Everyone got their things packed and we went in waves of people to load things into the car. I waited for everything to be packed up so I didn't wake Grayson. I ran to the car trying to keep him dry. I put him in his car seat, and everyone followed behind me to our house. Lucas was in Octive's car, so I was all alone with 6 kids, who were tired and were half asleep. We got back to my house and the rain was starting to calm down just a little. I left Grayson in the car until everything was unloaded and then I brought him in. I set him on my bed, so I could get changed. I changed into some warmer clothes because I was freezing. I carefully undressed Addison and Grayson and stuck them into the bathtub quickly. Grayson was so tired he didn't wake up. I washed them up, and I put them in some pajamas and they both were in bed snuggling. Addison had eventually fallen asleep. Luther came up to check on me. He laughed when he saw me with his hoodie and sweatpants on. "Comfy?" He laughed pulling me into him close. I nodded. "I was cold." I smiled smugly. I don't know why, but I was starting to feel a bit anxious, and I didn't know how to control it this time. Usually I could push it to the side and ignore it till later. But this time I couldn't. But I didn't want Luther to see me like this. "Could you watch the kids just for a second?" I asked going into the bathroom. He nodded. I shut the door and I threw my brush on the ground. I thought to myself:

 Stop Amelia! You have one panic attack in front of him, and he's going to think you're crazy! Don't ruin a good thing...

I started to cry. I couldn't fight it anymore. Luther must've heard me let out a sob, because he knocked on the door. "Love? Ya alright?" He asked. I couldn't speak. I opened the door and I shrugged. He brought me out of the bathroom and he pulled me into his arms. "What's going on?" He asked. I shrugged. "I'm so sorry. I don't know, I just don't know why, but I started to get my anxiety. I didn't want to scare you away, and it made it worse that I was trying to hide it." I explained crying for no reason. That was the bad thing about have an anxiety disorder, I cried about nothing, and there was no explaining it. "Oh Amelia. I'm not scared. Anxiety is a common thing in my house hold. It's alright. I love you." He said wrapping his arms around me and picking me up. He brought me over to my couch, and wrapped me into a giant hug. I sat in his lap and I calmed myself down. I must've fallen asleep for a while, because I don't remember much after that. When I opened my eyes, he was still there, but there was blanket over us, and he was sleeping. The kids were still in my bed. I got up carefully, to put them in their beds, and I looked at the clock that read 2:30 am. I felt bad that I didn't put the kids to bed, and that I fell asleep on Luther. I walked over to him, and woke him up. "Hey love, why don't cha hop into bed with me?" I asked him. He nodded sleepily and he got up to lay with me. "You feeling better love?" He asked in a really sleepy voice. "Yes. Thank you." I said. He nodded. "Anytime. I love you." He said pulling me into him falling back to sleep with his head on my shoulder. "I love you too." I whispered, even though he couldn't hear me. I fell asleep until the next morning.