You ARE My World

Fire-Bird

I woke up feeling anxious this morning. It was two days after my birthday, and I didn't have the kids still, so I stayed in bed, and I texted Tristen all morning.

Me- Hey there. :)

Tristen- Hey Sweetie. How you doing?

Me- I'm actually feeling kinda anxious today. I've had two panic attacks since I woke up this morning. :(

Tristen- Oh no. You need anything? I know we are hanging out tonight, but I can bring you something if you need it.

Me- No, I'm alright. I'm in bed resting. I really miss the kids.

Tristen- Maybe that's why you are so anxious. You have never been away from them this long. Breathe sweetie. Everything is alright.

Me- You're probably right. I am just so worried that something is going to happen. And I'm not there too rescue them...

Tristen- Amelia, you know nothing is going to happen.

Me- I know. I'm sorry... It's just the way my mind thinks. I can't help it...

Tristen- I know sweetheart. What else is bugging you?

Me- I don't know...

Tristen- Is it Steven?

Me- Kinda. But I don't want to talk about it with you. It's not fair to you.

Tristen- No, I want you to talk too me about it. If you are still hurting... I understand.

Me- I don't want to break up with you. I want to get better. I want to be over him.... :'(

Tristen- I'll be over in a little bit.

When he got here I was under my covers muffling the sounds of my sobs. He slipped off his shoes, and he uncovered me and got into bed with me. "Hey, talk to me. I want you to know that I'm not going any where this time. We are going to get over him together. You aren't going to do this alone." He explained wrapped his arms around me and stuck his head in the small of my neck. We laid like that until I fell asleep. When I had woken up he was still in bed with me, holding me. I opened my eyes and I smiled. "I'm sorry." I said feeling bad. He shook his head. "Don't be. You needed that. And you needed me. Just as much as I need you." He said looking into my half awake eyes. I smiled. "I am trying. I promise." I said turning around and kissing his chest. He nodded. "I know baby girl. You don't need to tell me." He nodded. "I love you." He whispered. I got butterflies. That is one thing that Tristen does to me, he makes me feel loved. He fills my heart with love, and that a I could ever ask for. "I love you too." I smiled. He hugged me tight. "I'm going to go home, and get ready for our date tonight. I will pick you up at 5." He cooed. "What should I wear?" I asked. He got out of my bed and walked over to my dresser. He pulled out a pair of blue white washed jeans, and a long sleeve old navy shirt that had a white ring around the sleeves. He walked over to my show rack and picked out my tan uggs. That didn't really match but it was cute that he was trying. He walked over to my underwear drawer and picked out a pink lace bra and panties too. I laughed. "You're a dork." I joked. He set them down nicely on top of my clothes and he came over to me to kiss me goodbye. "Do you  have to go?" I asked giving him the puppy dog eyes. He winked. "I am smelly. I have to go home shower and get changed." He explained. I shook my head. "No you don't." I winked at him. And pulled him on top of me. He teased me by pulling off his shirt like he was gonna stay, but instead he put it back on, and kissed my head. "You tease!" I screamed as he ran away before I could get up to chase him. I decided that I was going to hop in the shower and get ready. 4:59 came around and he still wasn't there. After about 15 of waiting by the front door for him to arrive I texted him.