You ARE My World

Endless Love

"Mommy! Can I go with daddy to the derby?" Addison came over and asked. I looked down at her, and she wasn't dressed for an outdoor snowmobile derby. "Steven do you have warm clothes for her?" I asked him. He nodded. "Her snow pants and jacket are in my truck." He explained. I sighed. "Yes. You can go!" I smiled. She's been asking to do a lot with Steven lately, and it makes me sad that I can't go with them. I'm sure if I asked, he would take me. But I don't think that Tristen would appreciate that. She hugged my leg and I patted her back. "Be safe. And be good. I love you." I said as she let go. She nodded. "I love you too!" She said running into Steven's arms. I looked over at my mom who had Grayson in her arms. I walked over and sighed. "Looks like it's just you and me tonight Bud." I said smiling at him. My mom looked at me. "No, remember I'm taking him to that part you didn't want to go too. Looks like your kid free tonight darling." She smiled. I frowned. "Alright. I will call Tristen and see if he wants to do something then." I said. I kissed Grayson and my mom and dad left with the boys. I've gotten so used to being a mom, and taking care of my kids every day, and lately, everyone but me has been taking care of them. I missed them. I texted Tristen.

Me- Hey love. Whatcha doing?

Tristen- I am currently at the doctor getting my leg looked at.

Me- You alright?

Tristen- Just a check up!

Me- okay darlin'. How are you feeling?

Tristen- A lot better.

Me- Up for a date tonight?

Tristen- Absolutely. :) Whatcha thinking?

Me- Anything you want, as long as I am with you.

Tristen- Give me an hour and I will get back to you.

Me- Alright, I'm going to shower. I love ya babay.

Tristen- Love you to suga.

I smiled and I set my phone on the couch. I raced up the stairs to get ready. I knew that he was going to conjure up something priceless. I did my eye brows, and then I got into the shower. Once I got out I forgot that I left my phone on the couch. I quickly ran down stairs to get it. I had a text.

Tristen- Hey sweets. 5:30. Meet me at the Koffee Kove. :)

Me- Yay! okay. :) We must get Lyrics Coffee after.

Tristen- You know it.

I brought my phone upstairs and I picked out my outfit. Pair of white washed skinny jeans and a black long sleeve t-shirt with a light pink scarf. I brushed my hair and let it dry. I quickly gathered my stuff and walked outside to my car. When I got there, Tristen was getting himself out of his car so I walked over ot help him. I kissed him and he smiled. "Hello there." He said looking at me up and down. I laughed. "Hi love. This is our first date." I smiled. He nodded. I helped him walk in with his crutches and the waitress sat us at our table. Once we ordered our food I asked him how he was feeling. "I'm a little sore. But I am a lot better. How are you doing?" He asked grabbing my hand. I smiled. "I'm good. I won't lie. I really miss the kids. It just seems like every time I want to spend time with them, Addison goes with Steven and Grayson is off with my parents. Or with Steven also. I just miss them ya know?" I explained. He nodded. "We should take them to SkyZone, or to Chuckie Cheese, this weekend." He suggested. I smiled. "That'd be awesome." I agreed. "But for now, let's focus on us. And let's celebrate us." He cited. I smiled. "I love you." Is all I could say. I reached over the table and I kissed his face all over. "What do you want to do after?" He asked. I shrugged. "I don't know. Anything." I stuck my tounge out. "We could go home and watch a movie. At my place." He suggested. I nodded. "Yes please." I replied with eagerness. We finished eating and we drove separately to his house. It was starting to snow, and I could tell that he was nervous. When we pulled in the drive way I helped him out and we walked inside to find that his mom wasn't home. He laid on the couch, and I sat in the chair so I didn't hurt him. "What do I smell?" He asked jokingly. I shook my head. "I don't want to hurt you." I said shyly. He nodded. "You won't hurt me. My ribs don't hurt at all anymore. Come lay with me." He smiled. I looked at him and hesitated. "Don't make me get up and drag you over here." He laughed. I nodded and giggled. I got up and I laid on his stomach. "Am I hurting you?" I asked concerned. He kissed me. "I'll take that as a no." I blushed. I rested my head on his chest and we watched the movie endless love. I ended up getting a little teary eyed, because it was sad. He looked up saw that I was kind of crying. "You alright?" He asked wiping the tear that fell away. I nodded. "Yes. I want that love. Cheesy. But I do." I said kissing his chest. "I promise you that we will have a love like this forever." He said softly. I nuzzled my nose into his pec muscles and blushed. "Promise?" I asked. He nodded. "Promise sweetie." He said running his hands up and down my back. I shivered. He pulled the blanket from the back of the couch and onto us and I ended up falling asleep until the next morning. Once I did wake up, I got up knowing that he was probably numb. I checked my phone. 

Mom- Everything alright?

Me- Yeah, sorry mom. Fell asleep at Tristen's. I'll be home in a couple to get Grayson. 

Mom- Look outside. You aren't driving any where. State of Emergency. Kids don't have school today. 

Me- :( I just want to be with my kids. Ugh. I'm sorry momma.

Mom- Don't worry sweetie. I don't want you driving in this. As soon as the SOE lifts you can come home. Love you.

Me- love you too. 

I woke up Tristen to tell him that I was stuck at his house for a while. He sat up carefully and nodded. "No big deal sweetheart. Come on. Let's go get breakfast." He said getting up and grabbing his crutches. When we walked into the kitchen his mom was at the kitchen table. "Hello you two." She smiled. "Morning ma." Tristen responded while hugging her. "Good morning." I smiled at her. "How was your date last night?" She asked. I nodded. "Your son is a real gentleman." I explained. She smiled. "He is just like his father." She winked. I giggled. Tristen and I spent the day up in his room. I helped him fold some laundry. "You don't have to fold my clothes love." He looked at me. I nodded. "I know, but I want to help you. I don't mind. Cleaning and folding laundry relaxes me." I said. He nodded. "I know me too. I clean to make myself feel better." He said. "Me too. I clean until I don't remember why I started. Just relaxes me." I said. He agreed. "So, can I ask you, how are you doing with the whole Steven thing?" He asked curious. I folded the last pair of socks he had, and I thought about it. "I don't want you to take this the wrong way." I began. He nodded. "Never love." He said smiling and grabbing my hand. "I will always love Steven, in the fact that he is the father of my beautiful babies. I love him. I always will he took my innocence. I'm doing a lot better with it though. I just want you to know that I am trying. And I want to be over him. And I want to be into you 100%. But until I can get over him 100% it's not going to happen." I explained starting to cry. He sighed. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. I want to help you. I want to be the person to help you get over him. I want our love to be endless. I want to wake up to you every day and think that I am the luckiest man in the world. If you need some space, I understand completely. Just don't forget about me." He said in seriousness. Did I rush into a relationship with him? What was I thinking? "No, I want to be with you. I do. I love you." I said crying. He nodded. "I know you do sweetie. But you need to learn to love yourself again before you can love me, or anyone for that matter." He explained. "So are you breaking up with me?" I asked and immediately regretted it. He sighed big and loud. "No Em. That's not what I meant. I'm just letting you know that I will wait for you to be ready if you want me too." He explained. I slid off the bed and sat with my back against it. I wanted to go home and run away. "Em, I'm sorry." He said softly. I put my head in my lap and sobbed. I needed to get over Steven. I loved Tristen. He loves me, and my kids. I couldn't ask for more. "I'm going to go home, and I will call you later. I love you." I said finally standing up. The state of emergency was lifted about a half hour ago, and the roads were starting to become clear. "Alright. I love you. Come here real quick." He said scooting to the edge of the bed beckoning me over to him. I walked over to him and I sat in his lap facing him. "I love you. Don't you forget that. Please." He said softly into my chest. I nodded. "I know love. I love you, so much that it hurts." I reminded him. "I will wait forever if I have too." He added. I nodded. "I know you would. But I won't make you wait forever. I just need some time." I smiled. He nodded. "Deal. Kiss me one more time?" He asked. I bit my lip. "If I gotta." I joked. I kissed him and it lasted a while. I got off his lap and I walked to the door. "I love you. Call me if you need anything." He said. I nodded and I walked down stairs to my car. When I got to my car I started to cry. I hit my steering wheel, and I felt better. I drove to Steven's to pick up Addison. I couldn't stop thinking about Tristen, and Steven.