Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 6

I hadn’t seen Joon for days at this point. Ever since he had walked out of my room the day of the kiss, I hadn’t even heard him around the cabin. His door was always closed and if it was open that meant that he had left to go somewhere but I never had an inkling. Not that I should have been that aware of him but it was strange. I didn’t see him at breakfast, lunch or dinner.
Two other people had come to stay at the cabin, they were staying downstairs. A cute couple from Germany. They kept themselves to themselves and it was nice, no one bothered each other but for some reason Joon’s absence was bothering me.
I was honest with him, I hadn’t known what had come over me that day. I had just wanted to touch him so I did and, in all honesty, I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened. I don’t think I had felt that kind of heated attraction to anyone before. Maybe it was because I was trying to forget everything else going on in my life and he was definitely a distraction.
I still hadn’t switched on my phone and I had already been at the lodge for five days, people must be so worried. A part of me wondered if anyone really even cared and that made me scared to switch on the phone too.
Ever since I was a kid I had felt like I didn’t really have a place in my family, I was just the spare kid. I hadn’t really made my parents proud or lived an amazing life but when everyone had met Leo, all of a sudden I had made it. Mum and dad wanted us over for dinner all the time, comments were made about how lucky I was and how amazing my life was. I felt accepted for the first time in my life and maybe I stayed with him for a little bit longer because of that. Maybe I had said yes to his proposal because I knew that all I was going to hear from everyone is how disappointed they were in me for fucking this up.
I got up from my bed and walked over to the cupboard where I had stashed my phone under a pile of jumpers. I put it in my pocket and decided to go for a walk in the snow, I had seen benches scattered around the main lodge cabin so I’d head there and then switch it on.
I went downstairs to the communal kitchen and started making a coffee when I heard a noise outside, I looked out of the window behind me and saw Joon lying in the snow, he had clearly just fallen over and let out a shout as he was on his way down. I smiled to myself as he sat up looking a bit dazed and confused, grabbed my coffee and left through the back door to go to the main lodge cabin.
When I got there, I braced myself and pulled out my phone. The blank screen was just waiting to either tell me that people cared or they didn’t. When it switched on nothing happened for a few minutes and my heart sank, no one cared. I put the phone down on the bench next to me and with shaky hands I drank some of the coffee I had brought with me. I was just thinking about how I might stay at the cabins forever when a series of pings started going off.

MUM: Have you actually lost your mind? Where are you? Call us NOW.
MUM: Mina, you’re not a child!! You can’t just run away. CALL US NOW!! Leo is going insane over here, do you even care that we’re all worried??
MUM: I knew you would do something to mess this up, Leo is a mess and you’re off on a holiday?????
MUM: I thought I raised you better than this Mina, do what you want. Come back or don’t.

LEO: Can we just talk about this Mini? I know I fucked up but can’t we just talk it out?
LEO: Where the fuck are you? Are you actually not going to sort this shit out? We’re over? Just like that?
LEO: We were getting MARRIED Mina; this isn’t a joke. I know I fucked up and I’m sorry but I’ve been talking with your parents and babe, maybe we should all sit down and talk this out. The last thing you want to do is disappoint them, right?

Fifty-seven messages, all worse than the last until they had given up the day before. All of them telling me to come back and sort out my ‘little fight’ with Leo and to move on with the wedding. I had known that Leo would go straight to my parents to get them on his side, it wouldn’t have been hard to convince them that I was the bad guy. I guess it had been too much to expect them to understand me and try to work out why I had done it. Had they even asked Leo what was wrong or had they just asked what I had done wrong?
I could feel an emotional eruption coming from inside of me, it had been building up day by day, the more I had thought about everything that had happened, the more I had been feeling my chest getting tighter and tighter. I rubbed my hands up and down my face in frustration and then stood up. Then sat back down but I couldn’t stay still so I got up and started pacing. I needed to scream or break something but I couldn’t do that here and it was killing me. I forgot my phone and coffee on the bench and ran back to my cabin, I ran up the stairs when I got there and went straight into the bathroom, turning on the shower and stripping before stepping under the hot spray of the jets. Then I cried.