Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 19

JIMIN

I was in my room with Taehyung. I had come in after walking away from Mina and Tae had been sitting in an armchair waiting for me. He had known something was wrong right away and had followed me up to my room. I had silently gotten changed and walked around washing up, he had waited without saying a word.
‘Do you want to talk?’
‘I don’t know.’
‘Has something happened?’
‘I’m not sure.’
‘Jiminah, you don’t look okay. Talk.’
I wasn’t sure that I wanted to talk about Mina with anyone yet because I didn’t know if there was anything to talk about. Her regret had been evident by the expression on her face but I couldn’t work out why. She had been the one to make that first move and I had obviously liked it. I didn’t try to stop her. I would have carried on all night if she had let me, I had been waiting for that moment since I had first seen her. I was missing something…something had made her sober up and regret it.
‘I have feelings for Mina.’
‘Yeah, so?’
‘What do you mean?’
‘I worked that out already, you stare at her all the time. You make sure you’re in the same place as her as much as you can. I saw you studying English on your phone and you barely ever bother otherwise.’
‘We kissed, just now…outside.’
‘So she likes you too…I thought she did. What’s the problem?’
‘Something must have happened in her mind, as soon as I ended the call with you she didn’t look like the same person. She looked like she regretted what happened.’
‘Did you ask her?’
I shook my head and looked at the floor. I didn’t think to ask her but I thought about it now; she had been so upset today, maybe that was still on her mind and she had been drinking. Maybe it had all gotten to her and she was feeling overwhelmed.
Rather than driving myself insane about it now I could just talk to her in the morning. I ran it past Taehyung and he nodded, smiling his encouragement. I found myself smiling too, it hadn’t surprised me in the slightest that he had known my feelings towards Mina. We had been like brothers for so long that we often gauged each other’s feelings before realising it ourselves and if he thought that I was doing the right thing then I must be.
In the morning I woke up feeling positive, Mina would be sober and we could talk about this. I headed out towards her cabin after washing up and was met by Namjoon hyung in the kitchen when I got there.
‘Jiminah, can you call the other guys? We need to talk, all of us.’
‘In this cabin? Mina is-‘
‘She left for the town close by, she won’t be back until the evening.’ Hyung was still speaking but I wasn’t hearing him, my thoughts were on Mina and the fact that she had left, surely she knew I would want to talk to her but she had gone any way. She didn’t want to see me. She had left to avoid me.
‘Jiminah? Are you listening?’
‘Huh? Sorry, I’ll call them all.’
I called each of the members and sat down in the living room area to wait for them all to arrive but my mind was still on Mina. I had thought that the emotions she had been feeling yesterday had made her back away from me but if she had left to go miles away then maybe there was more to it, she must have thought it was better to go than to face any awkwardness with me here. The whole time I had known her she had been a confident person, not backing down from an opinion or thought but me kissing her had made her disappear. My thoughts returned to the night before when my phone had rang and I had seen how the attraction in her eyes had turned sour, her expression changing from being content to something completely different.
I didn’t want to think that I had misread the whole thing between us, from my side the feelings had been building so steadily that I couldn’t deny them if I tried. From her reaction last night I had thought that maybe she had been feeling the same.
I looked around at the cabin in a fog and my eyes travelled up to Mina’s room, I’d never wanted to see her walk out of her bedroom door more.