Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 10

MINA

I was having the time of my life.
That was the truth. I wasn’t thinking about home or Leo, I was enjoying my time in the mountains, the snow and most of all; I was enjoying the times that Joon was inside me. It had been a week or so since we had fucked in the bathroom and the sex had just kept getting better. The orgasms would hit me hard and left me wanting more every time. I wanted to fuck more than I had ever wanted to in my life and he was always ready. It didn’t bother me that we didn’t talk about deep things or that we did things alone a lot. That was the best thing about this whole scenario. It had now been around a month since I had left London and though I still hadn’t dealt with everything going on at home, I was feeling so good. Joon was a part of that but this place was a huge part of that. The freedom was healing me.
I was in my room, thinking about going over to Joon’s room and seeing if he wanted to join me in the shower. When I got to my cupboard to pull out a towel, my phone fell out with it. I stared at it for a second before deciding to face up to reality for once. I wasn’t ready for the big conversations but my best friend was someone I definitely wanted to talk to.
I turned my phone on to talk to Jia but it had rang before I even got the change to dial. It was Leo. I thought about not answering but I knew I had to face him eventually so why not, Joon was out and about doing his own thing and it was as a good of a time as it could be for this.
‘Hel-‘
‘Mina, what the fuck?? Where are you? Who the fuck just ups and leaves like this?? You don’t give a shit do you, do you have any-‘
‘I didn’t answer the phone to have you talk to me like a piece of shit, Leo. Talk like a human being otherwise I’m turning my phone back off and I won’t be turning it back on.’
‘Your mum is losing her mind. I’m losing my mind, can we not talk about this?’
‘Talk. What do you want to talk about?’
‘Mina, look, I know I fucked up; I know that completely. I’m sorry, so sorry…can we not just work on us? Can I not work on us?’
I looked around the room and took a deep breath, maybe some time ago I would have listened and given in to his words. After all, at one point I had been convinced I was in love with this man but the dream had turned into a nightmare and I didn’t want to go back to that.
‘No.’
‘That’s it? Just no?’
‘That is it. No, I don’t want to work on anything and I don’t want you to work on anything. I can just imagine everything you’ve been telling mum. That it’s all my fault, that I’ve not listened or tried or that I’m being childish and I bet she believed every word because I’m the fool, always. I’m not doing this anymore okay, Leo? I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ve wasted so much of my life and my love on you as it is and I don’t have anymore to give. Stop calling me. Stop meeting my family. Just stop. Please.’
‘This is ridiculous, you’re not even willing to work on this. You see what I mean mum?’
My eyes widened as it dawned on me that he was with my family at this very moment. I almost laughed out loud but the tears made their way out first, this was exactly why my phone had been in a cupboard for days. I heard a bit of scuffling and then my mothers voice came on the line.
‘You get yourself back here now Mina. I’m not joking, this is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done and there are enough things to list as it is.’
‘No.’
‘NO?? This isn’t just your decision, we all-‘
‘No, Mum, this is just my decision. You have no idea what that special son of yours has been doing to me and if only you didn’t blindly believe what he says, you might understand why I’m avoiding all of you. I’m not coming back, not yet. I don’t want to see any of you. You’re my mother but you’re on his side??’
‘You ran away without even explaining, what else would I believe?’
It stung that she was right. I hadn’t explained, even before I made the decision I hadn’t discussed it with anyone or thought to sound it out with anyone either. Surely Jia had been in touch with them to explain, she knew everything. A kind of sick feeling came over me…out of all the missed calls and messages, none of them had been from her. Jia hadn’t even tried to contact me.
‘Mum, I’ve got to go okay. Don’t call me. I’ll be back when I’m ready.’
She tried to carry on talking but I hung up the phone, dialing Jia’s number immediately. She didn’t answer on the first try or the five after that. Something really didn’t feel right so I called our mutual friend Bee. She answered on the first try.
‘Mina, oh my God, where have you been?’
‘Bee, I’ll explain in a bit but…have you been in touch with Jia? She’s not answering my calls.’
There was a silence, longer than it needed to be and I knew inside that something was about to be said, something that wasn’t quite right. Jia would never go this long without calling me or checking on me, I couldn’t explain the feeling but I knew this wasn’t going to end well.
‘Mina…the thing is….Jia is around but she probably thought it might be best to leave you alone.’
‘I don’t understand, why? What do you mean?’
‘She’s seeing someone and she’s been with him since you left.’ This was news to me, Jia had been single for months and hadn’t mentioned anyone in the last few weeks, ‘It’s Leo.’
The room was suddenly too hot, too small and moving way too much. I grabbed the back of the chair in front of me and closed my eyes, taking in what Bee had just said. I hadn’t misheard. She had just told me that my best friend was seeing my fiancé.
‘You…you can’t be serious Bee? Jia would never-‘
‘Look, I told her to tell you, I was never okay with this. She fucked up and I don’t want to lie to you, it was hard enough not telling you in the lead up to the wedding and well, shit Mina; how was anyone supposed to tell you?’
I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t see and nothing was making sense. Jia had been there through the whole relationship, the proposal and her company was doing the wedding planning. What the fuck was this? I felt the heat rising to a stage that I couldn’t control, I thought I was going to be sick so I walked to the door to get to the bathroom, the phone forgotten on the floor. I heard voices outside but I couldn’t make sense of them as if they were speaking another language. I opened the door and stepped outside. The last thing I heard was someone asking if I was okay and the last thing I saw was someone with blond hair looking at me with eyes full of concern.