Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 28

JIMIN

It was her. This time I wasn’t imagining it or seeing things, it was Mina.
Last minute I had thought that joining the guys for drinks may be a good idea as we were all tired and needed each other. Jungkookie had been asking for the last hour and though I had kept saying no, something made me change my mind. As I had stepped out from the elevator and rounded the corner towards the bar I saw long dark hair and had stopped in my tracks.
The woman with the long dark hair had turned her head towards the right and I saw some of her face, my whole body went hot when it was clear I wasn’t dreaming.
She hadn’t seen me, she was waiting in the short line at the entrance of the bar; for a moment I was undecided, I didn’t know whether to turn back around and go to my room, walk up to her and demand answers or just walk past her and go to the guys. Within the emotions I was feeling when looking at her, the anger started burning more than anything else and in the end, that won. I walked over to her and grabbed her arm to turn her towards me roughly.
Her confused expression turned to one of shock when she looked at me and her mouth opened as if to say something but no sound came out. I glanced around quickly to see if any of the guys had seen us but no one was there so I turned to walk back to the elevators, still holding her arm and dragging her along with me.
‘Jimin, wait…stop!’
‘We need to talk.’
‘But I-‘
‘Mina, I am not letting you go.’
My tone must have been stern enough to get through to her as she stopped trying to pull her arm away and followed me quietly. As I walked us both into the elevator my thoughts were all over the place. I still hadn’t let go of her and part of me knew it was because I was scared she would disappear if I did; Mina was silent next to me and I glanced over at her. She looked incredible but it was obvious she had lost weight, her face was sad and when she looked back at me her eyes weren’t gleaming like they used to; I was angry at myself for being concerned, it wasn’t like she had been concerned about me when she had left the lodge…and me behind.
I was feeling something else too and that’s what was pissing me off more than anything, an intense attraction and a feeling of wanting to care for her; I didn’t want to be feeling this way, I was so used to hating her for what she had done.
We got off at my floor and I lead her to my room and shut the door behind us. She walked into the room awkwardly and turned to look at me, now that she was here I was at a loss too. The change in her was more obvious now that I was looking directly at her.
Her hair had grown and it was falling around her in waves, her eyes seemed bigger because of the weight she had lost but she was still beautiful. Everything about her made me want to hug her and in turn that made me even angrier. It was her that had slept with both Namjoon hyung and I, she had no right to leave without letting me talk to her about it; especially after what she had said to hyung.
‘Are you going to say anything?’
‘Why are you so thin?’
I said it without meaning to and I think that she knew that, she watched me carefully and walked over to the bed to sit down on the edge. She seemed wary and I could at least understand that, I had dragged her here and she didn’t know what to expect.
‘I…just lost weight I guess.’
‘Then why do you look so sad?’
‘Jimin-‘
‘Why do you look so sad when you’re the one that fucked this up? You’re the one that slept with both of us, you’re the one that left. You left me. Why are YOU the sad one?’
Mina grabbed the folds of the blazer she was wearing and wrapped them around her as if she was protecting herself, she was looking at the floor until I walked over to her and pulled her face up to look at me. She was crying and her eyes had nothing but pain in them, through my anger I could see how much my words had hurt her but I couldn’t stop myself. I had been waiting for months to say this to her, months of my own pain building up towards someone I thought I had been falling in love with.
‘I’m sorry.’
‘I don’t want your apology, hyung already gave me that for you when you decided to leave. I want an explanation, why didn’t you tell me what had happened? Why did you think it was okay? Why didn’t you come to find me before you left?’
‘I thought you wouldn’t want to see me. You said you were disgusted. I thought I meant nothing to you.’
‘Why?’
‘Why what?’
‘Why would you think that you meant nothing to me?’
‘Jimin-‘
‘Do you think I would have been thinking about you for months if you meant nothing to me? Do you think I would have reacted this way today if you meant nothing to me?’
She stood up then as if she was going to walk past me but I stood directly in front of her. I was inches away from her and her eyes were looking anywhere but at me, when they did meet mine they had anger in them; I wasn’t expecting that. How could she possibly be feeling any kind of anger towards me or this situation when she had caused this? Her tears had dried and she wiped her face furiously.
‘Why have you been thinking about me? Why would I ever think that I meant anything to you?’
‘What?’
I inched closer to her, both confused and infuriated by the words I was hearing from her. My hands went up to grip her arms and brought her closer to me, her face was barely an inch from mine and I could hear her breathing as if it was my own. She watched me with parted lips and wide eyes, eyes that were still radiating anger but also something else. Heat.
‘Are you turned on being this close to me again?’
‘Fuck you, Jimin.’
‘Is that what you want to do?’
I was saying the words low, so close to her lips that I could almost feel them under mine. Her breathing sped up, her body starting to arch into mine and even though I knew this is not what I had brought her here for on the surface, underneath this is what I had wanted all along. I had wanted her body, I had wanted her this close to me, I wanted to see all of her reactions and I had missed everything about her, I had been desperate for this.
My lips were on hers before I knew what I was doing and she was frozen for a moment almost pulling away from me and then I felt her give in, she was kissing me back with so much passion that I couldn’t help the moan I let out as I pulled her closer to me. Her hands that had been ready to push me away were now gripping my t-shirt and pulling me as close to her as I could get.