JIMIN
I didn’t know what I was going to say to her and I didn’t know if she was going to talk to me but I had to get to her.
I had to apologise and tell her that I wanted her in my life. I was sitting in the car taking me to her address and I had a thousand thoughts going around in my head, seeing Leo and Jia at the hotel had made me all the more sorrier.
When she was at the cabin, there were only a few days here and there that Mina had seemed happy but even then anyone could see that she was just pretending, she had been hurting the whole time. From the conversations I had with her throughout our time there I had understood that she was struggling with her family and with Leo, mostly because her family never took her side. Imagine then finding out that the friend that had always been by her side was betraying her too and on top of that I had pushed her away as well.
Whatever hyung had said to her had made her come back to this life and when I had seen her again I had wasted no time in fucking her and then I humiliated her right after.
I ran my hands through my hair in frustration, she wasn’t going to forgive me. If the tables were turned, I wouldn’t have forgiven those words.
I thought back to when I had taken her to the hotel room and she had looked so awkward, her face was gaunt and any kind of light in her eyes wasn’t there anymore, it wasn’t just because of me but it had been everything. At a time where she had needed love and support I had turned her away and so did her family.
In the last six months she clearly hadn’t looked after herself, her weight dropped and she obviously hadn’t talked to Jia or Leo; I wondered how her family had treated her and if she had any other friends that she could have confided in.
The guilt was flowing through me like water, I kept picturing her face as she had left earlier; how much pain and fury had been there. I was terrified that she wouldn’t talk to me, that she would tell me to leave her alone and I couldn’t do that now that I knew the truth, I needed to have her in my life. Ever since I had left she had been on my mind and I wasn’t going to let her go this time.
The car arrived at the address and I ran up the steps into her building. When I got to the door it took everything in me not to bang my fist against it, instead ringing the bell and waiting for her to answer. I glanced at my watch and saw it was close to two in the morning, maybe she would be sleeping; she had left the hotel hours ago.
There was no answer and I did bang my fist against the door in, shouting her name. Still nothing.
She wasn’t here.
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