Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 13

NAMJOON

It wasn’t that I was ungrateful.
It meant a hell of a lot that the guys cared about me to this length, they had followed me all the way here to make sure I was okay but at the same time, I knew this was for their benefit too. They needed to know that I was going back to them or with them, that I hadn’t abandoned the group for whatever else. One of them had been beside me ever since they had knocked on my door this morning and I knew they weren’t going to leave me be until they had gotten some answers. The truth was that I didn’t have the answers right now because even though I understood them, I was also angry that they couldn’t have just left me alone. Just for a few days so I could enjoy this a bit more.
This place, this solitude had been healing me; I could feel it happening inside me. Every day I felt happy to be alive and well enough to be able to walk outside, to read whatever I wanted, listen to whatever I wanted and more than anything else…I could do whatever I wanted. Now that the rest of BTS was here, I wouldn’t be able to do that anymore.
They had seen Mina too, seen how I had protected her and wanted to be alone with her. They must have questions about that too but I guess I could tell them to mind their own business. As if that would work, we didn’t keep any secrets between us and I was always the worst one at keeping things under wraps anyway. I didn’t think it was so wrong of me to want to keep her to myself, not the person but the story; couldn’t I just enjoy that and let it go when I had to leave from here? Again, it was a no. They knew everything, this was no different. If they didn’t ask now, they’d ask again later and I’d have to tell them. If I was being honest, that was going to be over now. I couldn’t keep fucking her if the boys were in the cabin with us, I needed to talk to Mina to explain the situation but obviously she was going through something herself today. I had thought I was going to puke earlier when I had seen her lying on the floor the way she had been, I had a need to take care of her and I was trying hard not to define that feeling and where it had come from. Neither of us had talked about what we were doing or what to name it so what was the point now. 
I heard the cabin door open and close, a few minutes later I heard Mina’s door open and close too. She was back from her alone time, I really wanted to go over and talk to her but she had been straight with me earlier and I didn’t want to crowd her. What if she hadn’t eaten though, I had some ramen in my room that she could eat as a snack if she didn’t want to go to main lodge. I left my room and headed downstairs, Hobi was sitting in one of the armchairs in the communal area and he looked up when he heard me; I walked past him and into the kitchen, switching on the kettle to boil some water and grabbing one of the ramen pots I had brought with me in my luggage.
‘Are we going to talk?’
‘Not yet.’
‘Joon-ah, we’re all just worried.’
‘I know that, I will talk but I need to make sure Mina is okay.’
‘That’s more important to you? Right now?’
‘Hobah, you saw her earlier, I’m just trying to do the right thing.’
Hobi scoffed, I turned to look at him in the middle of sorting the snack. He was looking directly at me, he wasn’t smiling and his body language was closed off. He was pissed off and understandably so, he had come to check on me and I was checking on someone else altogether; someone he didn’t know or care about.
‘Namjoon, the right thing would be to tell us what the hell is going on, why you’re here by yourself- well I guess not by yourself since you have this woman here but at least why you ran away from us. You didn’t tell us anything, you asked us to leave you alone as soon as we got here and we haven’t seen you since. Are we being unreasonable? Aren’t we a team?’
‘I needed the time Hoseok-ah, okay? Just because I’m the leader, it doesn’t mean that I don’t get crushed under the pressure of being in BTS! I just wanted a few weeks of being Joon, only Joon. I didn’t ask you guys to follow me here, I didn’t want you to follow me here so what do you want from me now? I’m telling you that we will talk, WE WILL, but as soon as I know that Mina is okay. Is that too much?’
The kettle reached its boiling point. Without looking back at Hobi I finished preparing the ramen and walked past him. It wasn’t often at all that we talked like that to each other but I had spoken from my heart, I wasn’t lying. I didn’t want them here but I knew I had to deal with them being here all the same. I shook my head slightly and knocked on Mina’s door when I had climbed back up the stairs. I heard her voice telling me to come in. I wondered briefly if she may have heard the words downstairs but then again, we had been speaking in Korean so it didn’t really matter. She was sitting on her bed wearing my t-shirt that I had left with her the night before, it came to mid thigh on her. She looked good enough to eat.
‘So they found you? The boys?’
She was smiling and that relaxed me right away. I put the steaming ramen down on her small desk and went over to kiss her, harder than I had wanted to; more desperately than I had intended to. It felt like she was surprised but she returned the kiss with the same passion, getting on her knees on the bed to put her arms around my neck. I broke off the kiss to look at her and she looked at me with half open eyes.
‘They found me. Forget that, are you okay? What happened?’
‘Life caught up with me, in a big way. It doesn’t matter right now, it won’t change if I worry about it.’ Once again she wasn’t letting me in. She leaned in and whispered in my ear, ‘Put your hands on me Joon.’
She kissed my neck under my ear and ran her tongue along my jaw slowly, heading back to my lips. I should have asked her more but my hands were already on their way to her ass, pushing my t-shirt out of the way to find she wasn’t wearing anything under it.
‘You’re so fucking hot, I love touching you.’
‘Touch me everywhere, baby.’
I groaned and pulled the t-shirt off of her, she smiled at me so sexily that my cock was hard within seconds. She laid back on the bed, naked, waiting for me. I pulled off my own clothes before joining her on the bed but before I could lay down, I thought about the boys being here and walked over to the door to lock it. You never know.
I turned to walk back and she was on all fours crawling towards the end of the bed, she was trying to kill me; how was I going to give this up? I walked to her and she took my cock in her hand, spitting on it before taking the length in her mouth sucking me hard. My head fell back and I tangled both my hands in her hair, I started to fuck her mouth and hearing her gagging turned me on beyond words. Her hand was stroking my balls, the sensation was electric.
I pulled her off of my cock and turned her around so I could fuck her from behind but her pussy looked so good that I buried my face in her folds. She took in a sharp breath and her head dropped onto the bed, her hands clenching the sheets as my tongue worked into her hole. I pushed it in and out, stroking her clit with my fingers; she was moaning my name and I could feel she was getting close to cumming. I stood up then and pushed my cock into her without any warning, she gasped loud and raised herself back up towards my chest; my hands grabbed her tits and squeezed while I thrusted into her hard.
‘Oh God Joon, I’m gonna cum!’
‘Cum baby, cum for me hard.’
I was sweating already, squeezing her nipple with one hand and the other made it’s way to her clit to stroke her; she was soaked and the feel of her under my fingers made me pump faster and then she was cumming, her moans loud and long. She shuddered through her release, falling on the bed when she came down from the high. I pulled out of her and she turned to lie on her back, smiling up at me with hooded eyes.
‘We’re not done baby, I’m still hard for you.’
‘Good.’
Fuck, this woman was fucking hot. I stroked my cock waiting for her pussy to be ready to take me again, I climbed onto the bed and positioned myself between her legs, bending to kiss the length of her legs and the insides of her thighs, wet with her juices. She stopped me as I got close to her clit, grabbing my hair to pull me up towards her. She wrapped her legs around my waist and my cock slid into her, both of groaning at the feeling. I started moving slowly, not wanting it to be too much for her but she put her hands on my ass pulling me towards her.
‘You want me to go hard?’
‘Fuck yes, I do.’
She bit her bottom lip when I pushed in hard, pulling out slowly to do it again; her legs getting tighter around me with every pump. I wasn’t going to last long, she was too hot, too wet and so tight. I started pumping, hearing my balls slap against her was turning me on even more. I pushed up to my knees, grabbing her legs and holding them up so I could see my cock going in and out of her. She was squeezing her tits, eyes closed and moaning, the view was so sexy. My cock was deep inside her, pumping her pussy hard and she was getting tighter, her walls were gripping my length.
‘You want to cum again, you wanna cum with me?’
‘Yesssssss, please just fuck me hard. Make me cum.’
My thrusts were getting harder, her ass shaking with every pump and soon we were both gasping out our release. I squirted every drop into her, feeling her shaking with the strength of her own orgasm.
A minute later I pulled out slowly and went over to the cupboard to get her a towel to clean up. Afterwards I was next to her, with her head on my chest and she was stroking me all over lazily.
‘So…the boys are here. Does this mean you’re leaving soon?’
‘I don’t know, they kinda just stalked me here. I have to talk to them.’
‘So you’re avoiding them.’
‘I mean…they pissed me off. If they’re all here then the managers must know that they’re here too.’
‘And what does that mean?’
'That I’m out of time. Here.’
She sat up then and looked down at me, she had a sad smile on her face as she climbed on top of me; her hands on my chest, her hair falling around her shoulders and her smooth caramel skin feeling like velvet beneath my fingers. I felt my cock stir under her heat, I was already wanting her again.
‘This must be over then right? If they’re here and your time is up…then I guess we can’t do this.’
She moved slightly, sliding her pussy over my growing cock. I bit my bottom lip, putting my hands on her hips and grinding against her.
‘Yeah, I was going to talk to you about it.’
She bent down to kiss me, her tongue in my mouth, her hands holding my head as she kept moving over me. I wanted to fuck her so bad, even as we were talking about ending this situation between us.
‘So we might as well make the most of it, now?’
She said when she sat up again. I looked up at her as she raised herself up on her knees and lifted my cock up to lower herself onto it. She took it inside of her slowly, letting out a soft breath as she did and my hands tightened on her hips.