Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 17

JIMIN

She needed a drink, I didn’t think for a second that she knew that her tears were flowing so easily, she would blink and more would fall and she didn’t try to wipe them away.
I poured a strong shot for her and she didn’t pause to think about it, she drank the whole thing in one go so I poured another, that one disappeared too. She took a deep breath and zoned out, I let her; Jungkook had called me to tell me she had looked terrible and had been heading this way.
When the guys had left, I had been thinking about her and depressing as it was, I had wanted to drink the thoughts of her away. Knowing that she was coming towards me had made me excited but when she barged through the door I didn’t know what to do and to be honest I was going to leave her alone but she had looked so frustrated with the server who had told her the bar was closed that I couldn’t stop myself. The relief had been evident on her face when I mentioned the whiskey. She had been with me for almost an hour, she was through half of the bottle before the words burst out of her.
‘My best friend is in love with my ex.’ I looked at her, I had understood some of what she had said but not all of it so I gestured for her to say it again, ‘My best friend…she is in love with my…boyfriend. We broke up. She is with him now.’
Her boyfriend…but they broke up and now her best friend was with that boyfriend and that’s why she couldn’t stop crying.
‘You are in love with him?’
‘NO! My best friend, she hurt me. I don’t care about the boyfriend. She broke my heart. It hurts Jimin, it hurts a lot.’
My heart hurt for her too and as she finished another big drink she bent forwards, her head falling onto my shoulder while she let out all her tears. This is the first time she had been this close to me and I felt bad about enjoying her presence when she was feeling so low. I placed my hand on her head, stroking her hair as she cried about this friend of hers that had broken her.
A few moments went by and I pulled her up so I could see her face and the thought crossed my mind that it was ridiculous that she still looked so pretty even when she was crying. I put her face in both of my hands using my thumbs to wipe her tears away, she sniffled and then looked into my eyes; her eyes were brighter than I had ever seen them because of the unshed tears shining in them and the urge to kiss her was getting hard to ignore.
This was not right, it wasn’t the right time or situation. We had been drinking and she was so upset, I had to back away from her before I made a mistake. I started to move my hands away but her hands had come to rest on mine, her eyes still on me.
‘Stay like this, please.’
I nodded and left my hands as they had been, cradling her face. My eyes roamed over her features, the first time I had been close enough to really see her. My thumb swiped across her bottom lip, feeling the softness and I knew I had been right in thinking that they were as plump as my own; I felt her sharp intake of breath when she felt my touch and my gaze went back to hers. Her tears had dried, her hands were resting on my thighs and I noticed how her hair fell like a waterfall over her shoulders and whispered over my bare arms.
Everything felt heightened all of a sudden, the scent of the whiskey we had been drinking was in the air and I was taken over by the urge to place my lips on hers; I just needed to know how she would taste, I wanted to know if her tongue would feel the way that I had imagined it.
‘Jimin…’
I knew I was starting to lean in, everything about her was drawing me in towards her and I couldn’t have stopped if I wanted to. I couldn’t hear anything or see anything other than Mina, right there in front of me with her face inches from mine. Her eyes had dropped to my lips and I knew then she wanted this too, my heart skipped a beat; a hot flush rolling through me and I moved closer.
‘Sorry, we have to close the lodge.’
The voice was loud and clear, jolting us both away from each other. It was the bartender telling us we had to leave. I looked back at Mina and saw that the haze I had seen in her eyes had cleared though she looked as if the whiskey had taken effect. She glanced at me, blushing and I knew the moment had been lost.
We walked back to the cabins in silence, the only lights coming from the lanterns guiding the way. I kept shooting glances her way to make sure she was okay but she had been looking at the ground every time and I felt so stupid. I don’t know why I hadn’t just kept my hands to myself and now she was feeling awkward. I felt like I didn’t know what to do, I wanted to tell her I was sorry and that I shouldn’t have pushed myself onto her like that, especially after she had just been telling me about her ex-boyfriend and her now ex best friend. She must be thinking about me being such a selfish guy and that’s not what I wanted her to think of me. I wanted her to look at me how she had been when my face had been close to hers.
I stopped in the low light of one of the lanterns, grabbing her arm to stop her from walking away from me. She paused but continued looking at the path, she wouldn’t look my way.
I needed her to know how sorry I was, I couldn’t let her go inside and let things seem more harsh in the morning. Still holding her arm I moved closer to her, she still didn’t look at me; I could smell her perfume drifting up towards me, I could see the way her hair was moving in the slight breeze and I could see she was breathing harder than she should have been.
‘Look at me,’
She met my eyes then and they were full of something. Not awkwardness or regret…they were full of heat, I was at a loss; I didn’t know whether I was seeing what I wanted to see. I opened my mouth to ask her what she was thinking about but never got the chance.
Her lips were on mine.