Caught In A Lie | A BTS Fanfic

CHAPTER 32

NAMJOON

He must have met her at some point before I could get there. She must have told him why she didn’t come to speak to him and I guessed he hadn’t believed her because of course, he would have taken my side.
I’m his friend, his brother and he wouldn’t have believed that I would have done this to him but then she had probably explained and he had thought about it. His thoughts had been confirmed when I rushed here to get them to meet but why would I if she didn’t care about him?
‘I lied to both of you.’
‘Why did you do this? What was the point?’
Jimin’s voice was full of emotion, I didn’t have the courage in me to look up at him; I knew he’d look so disappointed and betrayed and I couldn’t bring myself to see that just yet. He had always trusted me, come to me for advice and just to vent but I had lied to him.
‘I wanted to tell you months ago when I realised that the feelings I had for Mina were superficial but I was a coward. I was scared you would hate me for what I did and I really thought that I would get a chance to sort this out before you guys ever met again. I’m sorry Jimin, honestly, I am so sorry. I didn’t think-‘
‘Your feelings for her were superficial? So you lied to her and you lied to me just because she turned you down? Because she wanted me instead?’
‘I know it’s stupid. I know I fucked up. Just at the time when I saw you two together, I couldn’t understand, I was jealous as fuck and I-‘
‘Hyung, you know I’ve been thinking about her this whole time. She told you that she had feelings for me and you hid that from me. She told me she had been falling in love with me today and instead of stopping her, I let her leave because I believed in you over her. Tell me everything. Please.’
I did as he asked. I explained everything from the beginning; from when I had arrived at the lodge to when Mina had left the lodge. I told him all the feelings I was experiencing and the fact that Mina didn’t tell me what she was running from. She never bonded with me beyond the sex, even when she was a mess she still kept everything from me.
I told him about how I had the inkling that maybe they had started to like each other and I had thought I could take it. I explained how I knew that I had meant nothing to her but had hoped that I was wrong. Jimin listened to everything, he didn’t interrupt me and didn’t make any movements. I could tell he was taking it all in. If I had just let her talk to him that day then maybe they would have been together now. If I had let her explain that I had meant nothing then maybe Jimin could have thought it over and let his anger go. Instead they had both been left stewing over each other and that was my fault. I had been so childish.
‘Let’s go for a drink hyung.’
‘What?’
Jimin stood and brushed some invisible dirt off of his trousers. He stepped closer to me and put his hand on my shoulder, I looked up at him and saw the sadness in his eyes.
‘Namjoon hyung, you’ve been in my life as my friend and as my brother for a long time. Everyone makes mistakes, you’ve hurt me but I’m sure I’ve hurt you at some point too. We’ll move on, let’s go for a drink.’
‘What about Mina?’
‘I said some things that I shouldn’t have. She said she doesn’t want anything to do with me. Even if I wanted to see her, I don’t know how to find her and even if I did find her…I don’t think she would forgive me.’
‘You don’t know that.’
‘It doesn’t matter, somehow six months later she came back into my life…it’ll happen if it’s meant to. Right now though, let’s fix this while we can.’
He was talking about our relationship and I was so grateful, in the back of my mind I was still trying to work out how I could fix the issues between them but he was right; none of us knew how to find her.
We decided to head down to the bar, not meeting with the others but instead sitting at the bar itself. When we had ordered drinks we settled to talk and listen to each other, I looked around and saw that the place was emptying since it was getting late and it was a Tuesday night. A thought had started niggling through while Jimin was speaking and I looked at him suddenly, putting my hand on his shoulder to stop him from talking.
‘What?’
‘Where did you see Mina?’
‘What do you mean?’
‘Tonight, earlier…where did you see her?’
‘Here, well I mean she was waiting at the entrance to come in.’
‘So she must have had a booking right?’
‘I guess?’
‘And if there was a booking then she would have had to leave a number.’
Understanding dawned in Jimin’s eyes, we drank our drinks in one shot and headed to the entrance; luckily there was still a concierge standing there and I moved forward to speak to her in English. When she looked at me I saw recognition in her eyes and excitement bubbled to the surface, maybe this would help me out in the long run.
‘Hello, we were wondering if you could help us?’
‘Oh my god, of course…you’re RM right? Oh my god, is that Jimin?’
‘Ah, you got us! We had a friend here who made a booking, around eight…we wondered if she left a number at all? Her name is Mina but she didn’t show up.’
The girl looked around, it was probably against all kinds of privacy policies to help us with this but it was clear she was starstruck. She smiled and looked through the bookings on the tablet in front of her but her brows furrowed quite quickly and she told us that there were no bookings under that name. Jimin’s shoulders dropped in defeat and he turned to walk back to the bar, I turned back to the concierge to thank her for her help but she was still looking at the tablet.
‘Thanks for your-‘
‘There was a booking for two today but the woman never showed up for the date, could that be your friend?’
‘A date?’
‘The guy is still here, you wouldn’t believe it; he called another woman afterwards and they’re on a date instead!’
Jimin had come back to see what I was doing and I explained what the girl had just said, he gestured for me to ask more and I turned back to ask.
‘Who’s the guy?’
‘Let me see…oh! Leo is the first name, does that help you?’