Billie
"and she's so fineee goddamnit" i gush throwing my head back, i can feel zoe and drew silently stare at me.
"then why don't you just let her take you on a date?" zoe asks puzzled.
"i made a promise to myself remember" i say looking back at them, "plus it's like i have some sort of bad luck with dating" i mumble.
"billie not everyone is bad or wants to hurt you" drew say quietly, i groan while picking on my nails.
"i know but literally everyone in my past" i say with a small pout.
"but look at all three of your exes. you had a chose between two people and you just happen to choose the wrong person each time" zoe tries to comfort me.
"there's still levi, who is also trying to take me out" i tell them making them roll their eyes.
"don't even try. we all know that guy ain't shit, what has he done to prove that he actually wants you?" zoe asks.
she has a point.
"nothing" i mumble, "but dakota hasn't done shit either" i add.
"because you haven't let her" they both shout at me making me whine.
"you wouldn't even give her your number" drew says making me roll my eyes.
i suck my teeth and groan, "she is a fucking great kisser" i tell them.
"you've told us"
"shit man she's just so..." i trail off thinking of the word but nothing comes up.
"if you want her so much then let her have your number or something"drew suggests.
"i don't know" i mumble while unlocking my phone to scroll through it.
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my eyes scan the crowd a bit but they don't seem to find the familiar face i was looking for making me sigh.
i go back in dressing room to finish getting dressed and wait for my turn to go on stage until i was called.
i let out a sigh before straightening up my posture as i walk on stage.
i dread the whole performance until it's time to get off, i roll my eyes and walk off while tying my hair back.
"how was it?" laina asks teasingly as she sits next to me on the bench.
"fine. she's not out there" i shrug taking off my shoes.
the day i was actually willing to give more and went extra with my makeup she doesn't show.
i don't know why i'm so mad.
it's not like i did it for her, i did it for myself..
i quickly pack my things and put on some clothes before going to get water from the bar.
"oh shit" i hear a voice behind me making me turn to see a familiar face.
"hi, sorry i'm late, did i miss your performance?" she asks making me resist the edge to roll me eyes.
"yes you did and why are you apologizing?" i raise an eyebrow.
"i- i just- i don't know honestly but i wanted to watch you" she shrugs sitting next to me.
"too bad" i shrug drinking my water. meanwhile a very big part of me is mad she missed it.
"can i buy you a drink?" she asks with a little smile, i biting back a smile.
she lets me order a drink before turning to me as we wait, before i know i'm pulled into her lap.
"are you ever gonna give me a chance?" she asks with a small tiny smile, i resist the edge to smile at how cute she is.
"why? i mean what do you see in me? and why should i give you a chance?" i ask her.
"i mean you're beautiful, i wish i could tell you more but i don't know you like that but you really caught my eye" she shrugs while giving me my drink.
"and you should give me a chance because i think i can show you and give that right type of treatment seeing how you're scared right now, you haven't been treated well in the past" she adds.
"you're saying big things right now, i don't think you realize" i tell her making her chuckle.
"i do and i want you to believe me so i can show you" she says giving my waist a small squeeze.
i stare at her for a minute looking for any sigh of lie or uncomfort but i find none, she only stares back at me.
"okay" i mutter making her smile big, "no no no i haven't agreed, i'm going to think about it" i tell her making her bite her lip.
"okay, i'll take it" she nods with a smile making me smile a bit while bringing the beverage up to my mouth.
"i've got to go though" she tells me making me sit up, i nod watching her pat herself down to make sure she has everything.
"have a good night" she says leaning down to press a kiss on my cheek softly.
"you too" i watch her smile while walking away with her hands in her pockets until she's out the door.
i make my way back to the dressing room and find laina getting dressed, she looks down at my hand before smiling.
"i'm guessing she showed up?"
"yup and late" i tell her.
