Entropy (WANGXIAN FanFic)

The Promise

It's getting near the end of the sects study invitation at Cloud Recesses. Wuxian had been meditating as Wangji played Cleansing for him when they were outside of classes. In terms of the yin energy (resentful energy), Wuxian has been managing very well. At one point of he sent a letter explaining to Xingchen and Song Lan that he and Lan Zhan will be taking a detour home. The stopped by agreeing to take Daiyu and Xiaobao with them so they were to settle in there new home at Celestial Mountain. They also relayed to Wuxian that Baoshan was really looking forward to meeting his Soulmate.

The closer the to the day they were to leave, the more anxious Wuxian was becoming. He knows that he doesn't have to worry about his Grandmother not liking Lan Zhan, he knows she will love him. He is anxious because he can sense that the Yin Iron and the Wen Sect have a big connection. He knows they are up to something, otherwise why would they send a Dire Owl to spy on Cloud Recesses. Even some disciples were attending this year at Cloud Recesses and they haven't been for the past five years or so...at least that was what Wangji told Wuxian.

It was early morning and there were no classes that day. After having breakfast, Wuxian and Wangji went back to The Jingshi for Wuxian's daily meditation.

"Lan Zhan, do we have to do the meditation here?" Wuxian asked sitting on the bed, "it's so nice outside and I feel like I could have a really nice meditation session outside today."

"We can," Wangji said in agreement. He grabbed his guqin and strapped it to his back, "I have a place we can go."

Wuxian flashed his heart warming and loving smile at his partner. It only caused Lan Zhan to feel happy on the inside. He guided Wuxian towards the back hills of Cloud Recesses and eventually approached such beautiful scenery. In front of them was a waterfall, and there were plenty of rocks and open spaces to sit and have a cozy meditation there. They sat there for about an hour allowing Wei Ying to fully absorb the surrounding areas Yang Energy.

A thought crossed Wuxian's mind causing him to open his eyes, "Lan Zhan, do you think I will lose control someday? If I do, would you kill me?"

Lan Wangji stopped playing as he heard what his soulmate said. He didn't know what he would do, "I am going to remain hopeful that you don't lose control. I don't know if I would be able to kill you, or even want to hurt you. Even just thinking about that pains my heart."

"I'm sorry," Wuxian said, "I am just worried. With the Yin Iron, there is a lot of resentment that is filled in each piece. I can try to use Chenqing to see if that works but I know that with all the resentful energy I take in, I would need twice the amount of Yang Energy to make sure I don't turn demonic."

"I will look at other music pieces in the Library or ask Xionzhang and Uncle if there is any other much to help," Lan Zhan said, "I promise you, I will help you and I promise I will do everything in my power to keep you safe from the resentment."

"How can you promise when you are not even sure of the future outcome? If I turn, I will not recognize you and may even try to kill you!" Wuxian exclaimed, "I don't want to hurt you, Lan Zhan!"

Wuxian was now getting himself worked up and scared as he was fearing the worst. Lan Zhan flashed his guqin away and hopped over to Wei Ying, pulling him into a gentle but firm hold on his lap. Wuxian's face was planted in Lan Zhan's neck and his hands gripped the tendrils of the jade's robes as he couldn't hold back his sobs. He was scared, and he had every right to be.

Lan Zhan had right arm wrapped around Wei Ying's back with the hand rubbing in gentle, and comfortable circles. His other hand rested in the back of Wuxian's head and with his fingers gently playing with his hair. The sense of Lan Zhan's fingers running through his hair made a shiver run down his spine. Wuxian felt himself push himself further into his lover's touch. He didn't want him to stop, as it was helping him ease his mind.

"Even though you are scared, and I am also scared, I will still promise you, I will stand beside you every step of the way," Wangji stated in a gentle tone, "if I am the one who has to make a hard decision, I will keep my conscious clear and make the right choice best suitable for you."

"Even if it mean's to kill me?" Wuxian asked in a whisper.

"I hope it will never come to that choice," Wangji stated, "But for now, let us not focus on what could happen, and focus on what is happening now."

Wuxian lifted his head from Wangji's neck and looked up into his golden eyes, "I will try to not think about it for now."

"We will take things one step at a time."

Wuxian nodded and brought his hands up to wrap around Lan Zhan's neck, "Thank you for the comfort. I really needed it."

"Will always comfort my Wei Ying," Lan Zhan stated putting his hands on with side of Wuxian's waist.

"My Lan Zhan," Wuxian whispered as he pulled his lovers face closer to his own.

Wangji took the clue and passionately placed his lips onto Wuxian's. The soft and warm lips of Wuxian danced with Wangji's. Pulling Wuxian closer to him, their bodies pressed together in a gentle but firm hold of the Lan's unbelievable arm strength. Their kiss started to take a rhythmic pace with their heartbeats matching in sync perfectly. Tasting the sweetness of lotus seeds on Wuxian's breath, his caused Lan Zhan to heat up the kiss. Not being patient enough, Wuxian took over and brushed his tongue across Lan Zhan's lips. Wangji opened his mouth but then began to battle Wuxian. Starting to want to finally come up for air, both of them managed to pull their lips apart.

They sat there a moment to allow air back into their lungs, but Wuxian spoke first after he caught enough air, "I will never...get tired of those lips..of yours..Lan Zhan," Lan Zhan let out a huff of air as a regard for a slight laugh. Wuxian even caught the sound and looked into his eyes, "You should smile and laugh more. They suite you well."

Lan Zhan just shook his head and grabbed Wei Ying's face. He pulled him close and placed a kiss on the man's right temple. He then started peppering Wuxian's face with small pecks, his cheeks, and his nose. He slowly started to drift his kissing down Wuxian's jawline causing him to tilt his head to give Wangji better access to his neck. Once he did, Wangji immediately went for the sweet spot on neck. Kissing his over and over, eventually sucking and licking all over, biting down to leave a hickey in the bite's place. Wuxian let out a soft moan to shower Wangji with acceptance for his affection.

"Lan Zhan," Wuxian called out.

Hearing his name he actually knew Wuxian had something he wanted to say, "What is it?"

Wuxian looked back into his lover's eyes, "I...I love you..Lan Zhan."

Lan Zhan for the first time in a long time, smiled. He felt his heart beat faster after hearing those simple little words that had a big impact on him.

"And I love you, Wei Ying."

Of course it only took a couple seconds for the two to go back into making out. Though, It did not go on for too long, as the two had planned to have dinner with Xichen and Qiren. Wuxian was now having to find a way to hide the bite mark for it might make Qiren have a Qi Deviation.