Entropy (WANGXIAN FanFic)

Yin and Yang

~*Lan Wangji POV*~

I was sitting at home and had just finished composing Wangxian. It felt like a big deal to me, as it is the real first thing I want to give Wei Ying as a gesture of love and affection. I worked on the song for several days, thinking about which chords work and really listen to what my heart wants to say. While composing the song, I made sure to only work on it when I was alone and Wei Ying was not around. I would also stop working only to have my daily meals and sleep when it was time.

While just playing my guqin, it helped me relax and allow myself to forget about the stress and worries that I carry; it's the same sorry and stress my lover has. Why can't we just let things go one day at a time? Why do emotions like worry and doubt happen when you can't do anything at all? Of course, we wanted to do something but we did not know what.

It was later in the afternoon when I finally was satisfied with the finished result of Wangxian. I knew Wei Ying would be back soon so I put the song in a hidden place and then I felt like cleaning my guqin and checking the strings to see if they need to be changed. I removed all the strings and began to wipe down the base of the instrument. Once it was cleaned thoroughly, I polished it and put fresh strings on it. After putting the strings back I made sure to adjust the tuning if necessary.

As I was cleaning I could hear voices outside not far from the door. I recognized one, which was my Wei Ying, but the other, I did not recognize, as it sounded like a woman speaking.

'Why is Wei Ying taking to a woman? Why bring her here as well?' I thought.

I heard the door open and knowing that it was Wei Ying I did not stop what I was doing and continued to tune my guqin.

"Lan Zhan, someone decided to make a surprise visit," Wei Ying said.

I then decided to take a glance at Wei Ying and saw a woman. I was a bit shocked and overwhelmed, 'Is this Baoshan Sanran?'

I stood up and glided over to her and Wei Ying, "I am Lan Zhan, courtesy name Wangji, and honorable name, Hanguang Jun."

"It's nice to finally meet my grandson's soulmate," She stated. She then walked up to me and slowly walked behind me and then back to the front of me. She was looking my up and down, like she was checking out my appearance, maybe some sort of flaw as well, "A'Ying told me that you are to come with him to visit our home."

I nodded, "That was the plan yes."

She smiled at me and asked me a question that I did not expect, "When you come back with A'Ying and me, would you like to take the last step of training to be immortal, just like your soulmate?"

I know that one day I wanted to achieve such a cultivation, but I never thought it would be so soon of a question. At first it was just because I wanted to have more strength to defend my home here in Gusu, but now I have Wei Ying. Wei Ying is going through a lot right now, and I think if I were to go through with it, I can help him so much more.

"It was always a goal of mine to achieve such an honorable cultivation," I told her, "I wanted to be able to protect my home."

"And now, what is your stance?" She asked.

"I still wish to cultivate to immortality, but with a new goal in mind, other than protecting my home."

"And what would that be?" Baoshan became more curious.

"Wei Ying," that was all I said. Wei Ying looked deep into my eyes and smiled. It seems that he understood what I wanted.

"Is it to protect him?" Baoshan asked, "He has already gotten to immortality and his silver core."

"But he is at risk of the resentful energy," I answered, "I want to be able to be there and help him. Be there for his support, to help him by playing Cleansing. I was told by my uncle that I was born with pure Yang energy. I want to know what all I can do with it. I have been given the title of Hanguang Jun. I am willing to be Wei Ying's light on his darkest days; I am willing to be his music on his most silent of nights; And I am willing to spend forever with the man that I love and to be by his side."

Baoshan nodded and seemed to be pleased with my answer. The three of us sat down at the table and continued our conversation, "You do have pure Yang energy. It is a rare feature that very little can possess. All cultivators have Yang energy from they day they cultivate their golden core. But there is always yin energy that hides deep within them, clouding their judgements and leaving them to make decisions and obsess over certain things like power and fortune," Baoshan explained, "You though, I send no yin energy at all, which tells me that you are to be the next to master Yang Energy to its max potential."

"What do you mean?" Wei Ying asked.

"A'Ying, you are known to be a balance of yin and yang, thus being able to use both energies. But with that said, yin energy always threatens to rule past yang energy because pain develops faster then one realizes. You have had it very difficult as a child which was probably the main reason you can use both energies. Lan Wangji, though, he possesses no yin. Bearing only yang, it would make sense to call him Hanguang Jun, or light bearer. He has the ability to cleanse. So it would only make sense that fate would place you together as soulmates. One can help rid of resentment and control it and has a pure heart that wishes to protect and not harm. The other, maintains pure energy to keep piece and is to help balance the yin in their partner."

"Oh," Wei Ying said, "So is there a chance I could lose control and he would be unable to help?"

"He will be able to help you," She said, "That's why I ask if he is willing to cultivate to immortality. Once he does, he has the maximum potential to help you and save you if you are in danger."

"What would happen if my core becomes black? Would I die?" Wei Ying asked.

"It's something that I am still working on. The truth is, Wangji's sword Bichen, contains pure yang energy and can cleanse yin energy," She answered.

"Penetrating the core with a pure yang energy sword is still the only option, isn't it? And because Lan Zhan's sword is pure yang energy, he would have to be the one to do it, wouldn't he?" Wei Ying asked. As he asked, the tone in his voice became more and more painful, saddening. 

"Yes," Baoshan answered, "I hope we can find a solution so we never have to come to that, but I don't want to give you false hope. I also do not want to lie to you both either. This is something that hard to think about, I know, but it is what we have to go on at the moment. I promise you, I will try to find something, but I can't promise it will be successful."

Wei Ying nodded, "I promise, I will be careful with the Yin Iron," he said, "I will make sure to listen to what my body is telling me and tell Lan Zhan if something is wrong. We did promise each other, no secrets between us. I am still new to opening up and talking about what bothers me, but Lan Zhan has been very understanding of that."

"That is good to here," Baoshan said and stood up, "I will go discuss what was said her to Qiren and your brother, Lan Wangji. I do look forward to knowing more about you and having you spend time with us at our home."

I nodded and watched her give Wei Ying a hug before she left. I then turned my full attention to Wei Ying, "Are you okay?" I asked him.

He looks at me and then slid over and sat beside me. I pulled him to my lap wrapped my arms around him. His back against my chest and his head on my shoulder, allowing me to place my chin on his, "I don't know to be honest with you. At least we have some information. All we can do is be careful when we travel for the Yin Iron."

"I will help you with the best of my abilities Wei Ying," I told him and placed my face within the crook of his neck, "I will be there with you. You are not alone in this. You also have Baoshan and your uncles, my uncle, and my brother."

Wei Ying tilted his head further to give me more access to his neck. I started to place little kisses around it before finding his sweet spot and created a bite mark, "I know," Wei Ying said and moaned quietly. 

We sat there for a little while cuddling and coddling each other. All I could do and wanted to do at that moment was to distract Wei Ying's mind by being overly affectionate. It worked too. He eventually turned around still on my lap but straddling it. His arms around my neck and his lips on mine. We let our lips dance the rest the evening away with each other until we decided to settle down and ready for bed.