Feelings On Paper

I wish I could love you how you love me

i wish i could love you the same way i use to

like how you made conquering the world possible as long as we were together through it all

yet i sink at the thought of being stuck in a car longer than an hour with you now

i love you, i do

so much of me wants to get a house together and get matching rings that bind us by law

yet im so terrified of that law having to be broken

i miss when looking at your face brought ease into my body

when breathing the same air as you was a mellow serenity

but even as you caress me and whisper lovely things in my ear

i feel suffocated by how much i love you

like the breeze we breathe is poison slowly wearing me down

you get me countless gifts and turn on my favorite tunes and we watch my favorite shows

you say i love you over and over and over again

you make love to me over and over and over

you open doors and carry my things and lay yourself for me to walk over the dirt of this world

you go above and beyond

and all i feel is agony

because i'm not use to being loved by you in this way

because somehow its not enough

and i don't know if my love for you can evolve the way your love for me grew