Feelings On Paper

We'd Still Be Together

is it normal to miss someone you don't love anymore?

to remember fondly the laughs and the smiles,
and lay on top the mantel their happiness brought?

i miss who you were when you were happy with me,
but nothing else.

i dont miss the arguments,
the insecure crying,
the rolling of your eyes,
or your comments that made me want to tear my own skin to shreds.

i just miss your smile and your laugh.

the excitement to spend time with me and the call for me to come to you.

it may not be that i miss you,
i miss what i dont have right now.
and thats okay.

i receive reassurance daily and get showered in love every day,
i don't need what we had to feel loved.

but i do ponder on it here and there.

of course,
i was in love with you at some point in our lives,
deeply.

maybe had that been all you ever did with me—
smile and laugh and shriek in excitement—
in another life,
we'd still be together