Feelings On Paper

one sided

while the world smiles,
their worries not bothered by mine,
i don't feel whole at it's reassurance.

the thoughts circle and circle,
that terrifying thought—
it just won't come out.

the world will laugh in pure joy,
life has never seemed so clear to it before,
while i stumble my way to it.

the stress over my shoulders,
the countless fantasies crushed by my mind,
the many tears held back...

i smile and nod in agreement,
for the world is better of knowing,
i'm not as happy.