Submit to me Mavie

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Chapter 19: My obsession.

GRAE'S

I LOVE HER FROM THE MOMENT THAT I LAID MY EYES ON HER. Her pettit but curvaceous body, her wavy but shiny hair, her dark brown colored eyes, her luscious lips. I love her, every inch of her.

But i didn't expect that my feelings towards her will grow in to something that it is no longer healthy. My admiration became an obsession.

- I'm a typical highschool nerdy. My goal was to ace all academic subjects that i have, i sucked at sports because I'm too thin and weak for that. I'm also not into crushes and what so ever related to feelings.

Everything was according to plan until i reached my 3rd year in highschool.

I saw a girl sitting on a bench with her peers. She's a transferee for sure. Her smile was so bright. Her hair was cascading on her shoulder. She's a goddess.

From that moment, I started to follow her and know everything about her.

Mavie...
She's mavie her name suits her well.

My routine was like that for a year, then in my 4th year she became my classmate, i was so happy.

I continued what I'm doing, then i had the chance to be her partner for some lab projects. We exchange names, we're civil. She's nice, so I fell harder.

I'm head over heels inlove with her.
Time passed by i decided to tell my feelings for her. She just smiled at me as if i said nothing. I continued showing her my affection. Do her assignments, bring her things, she just let me to do that so i thought we were going steady.

Until one day she passed and became a cheerleader. I was so happy for her because I know that she loves to dance. She became extra busy wit her extra curriculars forgetting that she's a graduating student, i helped her with her acads. I let her copy my exams.

Things continued that way until 3rd quarter. I wanted to make it official so one day i followed her but she kept on ignoring. So i shouted with my full voice and asked if i can court her.

I saw horror on her face. She started to look around, she saw her friends laughing.

Then her humiliation to me started.

I was broken as if I'm dying. I didn't eat, drink, i didn't go to school, i was so depressed.

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I opened that door and lights. I'm afraid on what's going to happen if she sees this room.

I look at her she's in shock.

She started walking, uncovering everything in the room.

MAVIE'S

"say something mavie" hinahanap ko yung boses ko.

Natatakot akong mag salita dahil alam kong pag ginawa ko yon mapapatunayan kong hindi ako nananaginip.

Lahat ng andito may kinalaman sakin. Portraits, paintings, images. Mula pagkabata ko hanggang sa mga panahon na alam kong wala sya dito sa pilipinas.
Ultimo graduation picture ko meron.

Lumakad at nilagpasan ako ni Grae binuksan nya ulit ang isang ilaw na nag bigay liwanag sa ibang bahagi ng kwartong ito. Mga larawan ko kasama ng mga naging karelasyon ko. Lahat kumpleto pero kinikilabutan ako dahil bawat litratong nandito may bahid ng dugo ang amg mga kasama ko at tila may mga kalmot ang mga mukha nila. Lumapit ako sa mga ito at hinawakan pilit dinadigest ng utak ang lahat ng nakikita ko. Pinagpapawisan ako bukod sa nanglalamig ang buong katawan ko.

Lumagpas ulit si Grae at binuksan ang isa pang ilaw. Isang life size replica ko. Lalo akong kinabahan. Nakakatakot pero hindi ko magawang tigilan ang pag suyod sa litratong ito. Mayroon pang replica ko na nakaupo sa bench at pwedeng tabihan at akbayan. Yung tipo ba na nakikita mo sa park. Tas sa huli isang replica na naka side view at nakahiga sa kama.

Napapikit ako kaya ko pa ba? Nag ipon ako ng mas marami pang lakas ng loob para kayanin ko pa.

"we can sto-"

"no." sagot ko. Nakita kong tumango sya. Simula ng pumasok kami dito hindi pa nagtatama ang mga paningin namin.

"ito na yung last part ng kwarto"

Tumango ako. Binuksan nya ang ilaw.
Napaatras ako.

Mga litrato sa play room nya kung saan nakatali ako, nakaposas, nakabitin sa ere, nalauhod. Mga litrato ko na alam kong hindi ako.

"paanong..-"

"im obsessed to you Mavie" binuksan nya ang isang baol at nag labas ng isang bagay.

"ano yan" natatakot na tanong ko sa kanya.

"lahat ng mga submissive ko pinagsusuot ko nito."

Binulatlat nya ang hawak nya at sinoot sa isang ulong mabikin. Napatakip ako ng bibig. mukha ko, hulma ng mukha ko ang maskara na iyon.

Tumulo ang luha ko. Sobrang bilis ng nga patak gulong-gulo ako sa nararamdaman ko. Bakit? Bakit ganito. Bakit nagka ganito si grae. Ako ba ang may kasalanan? Ako ba ang dapat sisihin.

Lalapit sya at hahawakan ako.

"dont." layo ko

"wag mo ko hahawakan, hindi kita kilala" nakita ko ang sakit sa mata nya.

Tumakbo ang palabas. Palabas ng bahay na punp ng kasinungalingan, paglilihim,pagpapanggap.

Sa pangalawang pagkakataon pakiramdam ko naloko ako. Napakasakit mas masakit dahil alam kong may kasalanan ako kung bakit sya nagkaganyan..

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