Still I Can Feel You - Joel Hokka

In Need Of An Advice

February 2017, Helsinki

  Niko's POV

"How am I even supposed to tell him?" I heard Kristy say while I was passing outside her room.

She's probably talking with someone in the phone. But about what?
Tell what and to who?

It's probably about Joel but I can't imagine about what it is

"I don't even know what I will do" I know that staying behind the door to listen what is going on isn't right but the tone of her voice.....

She sounds like she had been crying before and I just came back from where we had gone with Joel to see another place that could be our studio, so she had some time to herself but I can't know what is happening and with who she's talking

"I will call you later" she said

She probably closed the call now. Should I walk in and ask her about what's going on? Or will she get mad at me because of what I did?

I didn't do it because I'm curious though. I'm just worried for her and I want to help if I can

I was about to knock on the door but she was faster and now we were face to face.

"Oh Niko" she looked at me amazed

I'm sure that she didn't expect to see me. She thought that it would take us a lot time there and that she would be alone at home for a while

I was also right. She had been crying. Her eyes are red, just like her whole face is

"Are you okay?" I asked and followed her in the living room

She really doesn't seem fine and I'm getting more worried and concerned as time passes.

"I need an advice and someone to talk" she sat down and pat the empty space next to her so I could sit

I nodded and sat down and turned around so I could look at her. She has my whole attention and I'm gonna do my best to help her. Whatever is happening can't be really bad.

I'm sure that we can solve it together.
The power duo as Joel calls us.
Joel.... What If he did something and the person that she doesn't know what to say is me? Many things are travelling through my mind now and a lot are possible to have happened

"Almost one year and half ago I send some applies to other universities in other countries. You remember?" She asked me and I nodded

It was when she was ready to start her studies.
She really wanted to travel and study to another countries that's why she send applications to universities from Germany, UK, Netherlands and Italy
All replied that they can't have any other students at that time and didn't even contact her again when they would find some space as they said.

So she didn't try anything else or didn't try to contact them again and she just went to our universities.

Her biggest dream was to visit other countries and manage to study there but she didn't make it unfortunately.
I remember when we were young how she always said that older people and adults were so lucky because they could go to whatever country they wanted and didn't ask anyone. As a kid I also agreed but now that we see their reality and not the one we were used to face we know that everything was a lie.

You can't just go to a country you want this easily and unfortunately can't make it to study wherever you want and wish to

But what I can't understand is how this has to do with what is happening to Kristy.

"I was send an email from Netherlands University" she took the laptop that was in the table infront of her and opened it

She placed it in her lap and went in the app and then opened the email

It had her name.
They are informing and asking her to attend their university and lessons.

One of the universities that she was most excited about and she always wanted to visit was Netherlands. She would go there without a second thought if that email had been sent when she sent her application but she doesn't seem really excited right now

"Where?" I tried to check every single word of the email carefully

"Holland" she looked down

Now I can finally understand what is really happening

"For how long?" I again asked since they didn't say something about this in the email

"Nine months" she was playing with the zipper of her jacket

Nine whole months. It really sounds a lot. She probably doesn't want to leave now not only because she has already has started her studies but also because of Joel.

One and half year ago she didn't even know him. She would be so happy and excited to leave but now he's changing her plans and even if he doesn't even know he has a control in her mind and decisions

She's in love and nine months without meeting him sound and actually are a lot. While she is here she can visit or meet him every day just like he also does but it won't be easy to travel from Finland to Netherlands or the opposite every day or once a week.

I'm sure that she wants to attend the lessons but that's what is keeping her behind.

"And now?" I want to hear what she's thinking. I can never be sure what she wants just because I think so. I need to listen to her

"It's a good university and I always wanted to go somewhere else out of here but what about Joel? What about you? Even if we visit each other it won't be the same" she stopped to take a breath and also to try to control the tears that were again on their way
"We got together just some months ago and we are so happy. I want to see him everyday and not once a month. I need the studies but what if I need him more, Niko what should I do?"  she looked down again and wiped away some tears that managed to escape out of her eyes

I don't really know what I should tell her now. She should make this decision and it's gonna be hard because the way she's thinking and feeling. I want to help her in every way I can but I don't think I can do a lot

"If you think that you need the studies and also want to attend them and believe that you have with Joel will stay alive and won't be destroyed then you could think about it but you should think a lot about it. It's not an easy decision right now I know" I pulled her in a hug "But it's gonna be alright even if you don't go. You have your lessons here and us that will help in every problem. I think it's better if you also talk with Joel and then think everything again and again. Whatever you decide I'm sure he's gonna be okay with it and you will also make it" I kissed her head

She must be feeling so confused now.
Her heart is given to Joel but it also belongs to music since she was a teen.
So if she has to pick between those two it's gonna be hard to do so.
She knows and has heard that most long distance relationship don't make it after two or three months pass and probably that's why she's afraid and worried about what she should do

"What If he's not fine with my decision?" She looked up at me

"You said that he had promised to be with you in whatever happened in the future right?" She nodded "if he loves you as I've got to know then he will be fine with it" she moved up and sat in her knees

"Now please stop crying, you better call him and tell him to come here. I'm gonna leave you two alone" I got up from the couch "Remember that you got one week to reply so no need to rush" I smiled at her

I wore my coat and shoes and left the house. They will need some time alone when she talks to him about all of this.

I just hope that she will make the right decision for herself and won't regret anything in the future.

*Author's note

I just need a best friend like Niko.... Pls find me one....

Uhhh their friendship
Also I really thought I would have only 1-2 Niko povs in the end of the story and here we are again with another one and still in 2017..... A lot more to come
Enjoy 🖤