Dawns High and the Destruction of the Bees

Chapter 23

Emma Chen:

Thursday, April 29th—

I'm huddled under my blanket, in my room, eyes closed. Mr. A decided to give me and my friends the rest of the week off. I would've wanted the rest of the school year, but that obviously can't happen.

There's so much to process it's scary. Especially after what happened with Hugo. I hate him so much.

I've spent the last week and few days crying in my bedroom and hiding whenever I can. I don't want to be a part of this, but why am I?

I haven't seen anyone expect Selena yesterday. I haven't met Roy and George ever since they left on the elevator two days ago. They don't even know what happened. If the machine finished loading or not.

Mr. A kept me and Matthew behind to talk to us about everything. How we've exploded on the day of the carnival and almost exposed our identities in front of everyone. Honestly, I didn't give a damn at the time. I was just so angry, so angry that the man had the audacity to show his face in front of me again. I had the desire to kill him that day. I regret that I didn't.

However, I didn't realize how much I've lost myself during the process. How I hurt the people close to me. I had Selena and Matthew trying to cheer me up and George and Roy doing their best. I even scratched Roy's arm. It wasn't intended, but I still hurt him. Also, how I shouted at him by the pond the other day. The hurt in his eyes. It reminded me of how I felt when Hugo betrayed me and Matthew, terrible. I need to apologize to everyone.

I'm going to become a new person and forget the past. I didn't forget what happened to me when I came to Dawns, but now I should. I'm planning about telling George and Roy the truth about my identity. Should I?

I look at the bracelet on my hand. If I just remove this, my hair will go back to its original color. What should I do?

Finally, after thinking for a while, I deicde it'll be best to let nature take its course. I can always tell them another time.

Going out of my room, I smile at Selena. I haven't done that in a while.

"Hugs!" I say, and I hug her tightly. We both giggle. I feel so free all of a sudden.

"Good to have you back, Emma," she says, parting the hug. "So what were the results? Did you guys stop the bees in time?"

"Not gonna tell you," I say gloomily. "You guys should all get a chance to know when you're ready. After all of your hard work."

"Oh," Selena says sadly. "It's fine. We've tried out best anyway, right? That's what counts. The MCC can always find a way to stop the bees."

"You're right," I say, trying not to think about it.

"Well, we're going to the mall to rela today," Selena says. "Let's go! They're already waiting for us."

I still don't feel like going out, but it looks like I don't have much of a choice. Hopefully, it won't be embarrassing. I can't really look anyone in the eye anymore. Also, I can't believe Matthew told them everything. He did ask me if he could tell them but I thought he was going to say the other version, the one we've been telling Selena the whole time.

Some people just don't need to know what we're going through. There's no need to ruin them too.

That day in the nurse's office was one of the scariest times of my life. I couldn't since my brother. I couldn't communicate with him at all. My whole body was shivering. I want to revenge him so badly.

I get dressed properly for the first time in a while. I put on black boots, do my hair properly, put on an oversized sweater, and black leggings. This is the best I can do today. Walking out of the dorm, I feel a cold freeze hit my face. It's refreshing and wakes me up. I don't know how long it has been that I feel so awake.